Just flushed the remainder of my pills

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Well, I first want to thank all of you on here for the courage and support you have given me.  I have just flushed the last of my stash (well over 100  Narco pills).  I planned on today being my quit day, and took it to the wire.  I knew if I woke up in the morning and had them still, I'd take them and let myself down- continuing the viscious cycle this God awful disease plays.  By tomorrow evening, I am planning on being uncomfortable but have stocked up on ingredients from the Thomas Recipe, Amino Acid protocol, have an Rx for clonidine and Xanax.  I have taken a week off work without pay, and although it will be hard on me financially, I am desperate to do anything it takes to get my life back.  I will stay in touch and will be looking to all of you for support and guidance.

ladyboop · Answer

GIRL, I AM SOO PROUD OF YOU!!!
 Did I tell you how Proud of you I am.. We all here know how hard this can be.. We are here for you... Just keep posting through it.. Do u have a heating pad? Or blanket? You will need it.. For when you get cold. I used it on my feet. My feet got real could... Heck, I slept on mine..lol..lol.. The clonidine will really help. I can not use that med. I get real bad headaches from it... The xannax will help you sleep. Klonopin would work better if you have any of that...

 Good luck my friend,
     Lady                                           Sorry, My key board seems to be sticking.. And 
                                                         not tpying... Who knows.. lol..lol..

desperate1111 · Answer

you have so much strength, determination. and a good plan in place. i wish you all the best.

wannabefree330 · Answer

Hey everyone, thanks so much!! just woke up (trying to sleep as much as i can right now).  Have the sweats right now.  I have been taking so much that i think the w/d won't hit me head on till late tonight/or tomorrow.  I will keep you posted and lean on all of you wonderful people for support.  And yes, I'm kicking myself in the A$$ for flushing those pills.  But, good thing i did or would have taken them already!

FlyFisher100 · Answer

Sweet!

You have just taken the first step in getting your life back...

worried878 · Answer

Flushing a hundred pills...wow...u r ready!....and u r right...it is hard to quit with pills in front of u..some say they can do this but i know i could not...hanging onto them is like admitting u may not make it to me...i am so happy 4 u...let us know how we can help..keep posting

LATR · Answer

Good for you. That took alot of guts to do that. Just remember it's not going to be easy but you are doing this for a reason. We are all here for you. YOU WILL GET THRU THIS!!!  Good luck

10356 · Answer

Good evening wannabefree, just wanted to add my support.. you can do this a lot of us relapse, I'm proud of you for not letting to much time pass.. It sound's like you have everything lined up and are up for it :) When you start feeling real bad put a pillow in a garbage bag slide into a hot tub and relax It's like a mini vacation from the rls and body aches.. I'm usually up late at night so if you ever need to talk I'm around,. I'm pulling for you..
P.S. It sounds like your head is in a real good spot.. that is good as I think that determines how bad the wd will be. You are in my thoughts.. lesa

wannabefree330 · Answer

Thanks you guys.  This is my 2nd relapse on pills.  It is the worse it has ever been.  I am up to taking 9-10 Norco (lortab 10mg) every 3 hours while awake.  As you can tell, it consumes my entire life and i'm ready to have it back.  This relapse started back in jan/feb but just progressed to the amount slowly over the months.  I will be leaning on all of you guys for the support as nobody in my support system knows about me using again.  Just cant bring myself to letting them down again.  I am a single (divorced) mom of 3.  Luckily they are all teenagers and can pretty much take care of themselves for the next week while i "have the flu".  I'll be in touch often and thanks again!

changingbestfriends · Answer

I AM SOOOOOO PROUD OF YOU!!!!!! You go girl! You can do it. I am with you 300% of the way. I can't believe you flushed them. What a great thing you did and to stick with the day you said you were going to stop taking the pills - Again - I am very proud of you. You are what it takes to encourage other people to continue on with the awful nasty battle and that we all can do this especially if we stick together!!!!!! Add me as a friend if you want to. I work all day but always check these when I get home at night. I'll have you in my prayers. Good luck hon!!!!

soreadytodetox · Answer

good for you ! i know it was hard to flush them! been there done that! i did the same thing took time off from work did the research got everything together to make things alittle easier for the w/ds.the clonidine will really help! its for the detox of opiates so thats a plus plus they will help with your leg dicomfort. just keep a track on your bloodpressure, make sure it done start to lower! the amino acids i still take daily! i went 4 years with a snorting percocets addition that was way out of control and very $$$$$ it was the best thing i ever did! think of the money you will know have each month instead of buying the pills! plus you might get a random drug test and lose your income? dont want that! haw long have you been taking them and for how long if you dont mind me asking? i am now 40 days clean and i hope to return to work mid july! im luck my husband can take care of the bills so i was very lucky. but ive got 20 yrs. at ford motor co. and i cant afford to lose it or my position there. they also are being very helpful. i wish you the best fell free to pm me if you need anything we all are here for you! you have the back up supplies great! just take it easy an dont plan on doing anything for a couple of day. you will fell bloh and very lathargic but you have the right meds! plenty of hot baths!!! i also used a heating pads for the stomach cramps get some imodeom ad they say it really helps with the bathroom issue and the cramps! im here good luck im pulling for you! really give me a shout if needed!       sherri

bandnmom · Answer

Wow!! You should be patting yourself on the back right now cuz you truly deserve it! That took alot of strenght to flush those pills down the toliet. You are obviously a very strong person and i have faith that you are going to make it! You know what you want and are ready to do it! Good for you! We are all here to support you and if you need anything please ask! I'll be rooting for ya every step of the way!