15 days no hydro

[this_big]

Here it is just over 2 weeks. I dont feel great, but really really good :). I've been sleeping for about 5-8 hrs a night. No real bad cravings (they go as quickly as they come). All in all i really feel like I dodged a bullet this time.This being at least my 5th time trying cold turkey.

Last year i made it 11 days and slipped...that was all she wrote..1 led to 2, 2 led to 15-20+. I can tell you though my mind is in a whole lot better place this time. I have the "REAL" want to stop this time. I didnt know what that was last time,I thought i did. I'd see where ppl would post "you have to want it". I thought i wanted it!  Until now I really couldn't understand it. Also I read a comment someone posted on day 2 (think it was Vikki) it said "just go with it".I never thought about it that way,i always tried to fight it.I know im by NO means out of the woods....But i  feel really GOOD. I've been attending AA and NA meetings everyday since day 4 and plan to continue to for a long while.I've met some really good people (some weird ones too.lol), and i really feel good about this whole thing when i leave.

  Alright my question...Could anybody recommend a energy supplement That dont give you the jitters. I never liked the drinks and the few pills Ive tried give me real bad jitters,like i've drank 15 cups of coffee.I've been taking a mens multi vit.w/"enrgy boost" and its really not doin much.

  Thank you to everyone who posts here this a great forum.I wish everyone goin through this hell the best of luck.

                 Jason

[recoveredfromamonster]

Perhaps you are willing this time. We have all half arsed it. Did this but not that. It's the willingness to do the whole deal that the "stars align." :) Some call it a spiritual awakening. That's kinda kuki about your sponsor lol. Good stuff. Good to hear.

[IBKleen]

I started NA in 1987 and except for a few "vacations", so to speak, have been working the twelve steps for that time. It does work but it is not for everyone so it is hard to explain to people. I am happy to hear that you want to give it a try.

Keep it up and let us know how you are doing as you go along.

[this_big]

Im going to try those l-tyrosine.Someone PMd me and said the same thing.I saw them on the thomas recipe,but was affraid to try them. I haven't had good luck w/"energy pills". I thought thats what they were.Thanks

[this_big]

IBKleen, I hear what your saying on the whole attraction/promotion thing.But to be honest if i hadnt read so many posts on here and talked to a friend that attends, i probably wouldnt have tried one. After just the first one i realized something goes on in those rooms that works.I dont know what it is yet.But im exited to find out:).

recovered, Yeah i've been swimming,and walking.Im just really out of shape.I worked yesterday,and i am just sore as hell.Ugh. I got a sponsor...Its funny the guy my friend had call me and explain the program to me, went with me to my first meeting.Come to find out we were in the 8th grade together (32 now)and used to party together in our early 20s.Hes 9yrs sober/drug free now. I asked him to be my sponsor.Its funny how things are working out this time.Its like all the stars are in line or something.

  Im not a very spiritual person,but something out there is making this happen.I cant really attribute it to one thing,but i'm going to keep doing what Ive been doing because its working.("running with it").Thanks for the kind words

[freenclean]

hey dude heres some vitamin sups to help with the sleep melatonin5mg at gnc pop about 3 an hr before bed and it will be lights out for 8 hrs with no hang over the next day and heres one for energy l-tyrosine500mg start with 2 and work up or down depending on how you feel this is also at gnc they are like 9 bucks each for a 30 day supply they have worked great for me  good luck and God bless Free...

[recoveredfromamonster]

Congrats to you. You may benefit from some B vitamins. B-12 comes to mind. Caffeine too. It may take a bit for your energy to come back full swing. I hate them energy drinks. And some have a TON of crap in them. Make me so dang jittery. Have you tried going for a run or bike ride? You been out of it for a while. Get your cardio working and that may stimulate your energy a bit. Get a to bedtime/wake up regiment and stick to it faithfully to help train your body's sleep cycle. Stay in the program and get a sponsor and work your program. On a side note what you had was not a "slip," it was a brush with death. you are lucky to be here. You won't have another chance. Take the blessing GOD has granted you and run with it :) GOD bless.

[IBKleen]

this_big, You made my day!!! I am so happy to hear that you are working on your recovery and have chosen aftercare to help you along the way. I always say the the fellowship of NA/AA is a program of attraction, not promotion and although it is the thing that saved me, I try not to push it on others. I am glad to see that you found your way there and I promise if you stick with it and work the steps, you just may find that you like yourself after all, and you do not need drugs to make you feel good. that was about the longest run-on sentence I ever typed! LOL

Keep up the fight and I hope to stick around and inspire others.

[Cissy373]

Congrats on 15 days I am on day 8 and have relapsed before. I am doing ok this time, just feel really tired, but not sleeping well at night due to hip pain.

Keep posting and sounds like your on the right track.

[this_big]

EVERYTHING..lol..I've changed my phone#(no more chance phone calls).I've let ALL my friends know whats going on and told them for no reason what so ever to give/sell me any pills.They were very understanding,in fact one of them went to a meeting w/me.Oh and meetings..I've been everyday since day 4, Weds. I went to TWO! I'm SO done with that ****!! I have already proved to myself i can have a fully functional day w/o those little bastards,and i cant put into words how great that feels.

[IBKleen]

I don't know of any supplements but I am sure someone will be along to help you.

I just wanted to congratulate you on 15 days. that is awesome! I just wonder though, since this is your fifth or so time, what are you going to do different this time to try and stay clean?