A new beginning

[reviewer]

I have been fighting this for a few years now, I stop and say I am never going to do this again and I find myself doing it all over again.  Today I did something though I have never done before.. I told my husband that I had a problem with pain pills and asked for his help.  That was the hardest thing for me to do is to tell someone about what I do.  I gave him my pills.  I have been tapering myself off for the past week, I have only had a 1/2 of a 7.5 mg today.  I do know what the pills can  do to people, I have seen first hand.  I started taking them because first I was in pain, I had had surgery but then I realized how they made me feel other than taking my pain away physical pain that is, it also took my mental pain away as well.  They made me feel like I could do anything.   I dont want to be this way anymore though, I want a clean life not one where I have to take something in order to get through the day.  On Monday I am going to call the local mental health place and get an appt because I know I need to get help with my depression and anxiety the right way.

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

You are SO doing the right thing. It's great that your husband is supportive of you to. So was mine, he is a blessing to me. Glad you are here we are all here to help you.

[reviewer]

Thanks for very much for that.. telling him was the hardest thing I have ever had to do.  I am not sure of what I am going to go through as far as withdrawal symptoms, I am really afraid of that.  But I know it beats contining taking the pills and losing myself in that.

[Chi_Chi_Lover]

It's a small price to pay once you make it through. I promise that

[worried878]

How many were you taking each day?...I just went thru WDs from hydrocodone a couple of weeks ago  I was taking about 80 mg a day...you know sometimes we just dont even count anymore!  Be glad to help...keep posting