Last 10/325 mg 2 hours ago

[oxypain101]

Hi,

I just took my last pill this morning at 8:30am.  My horror story started 16 months ago when i blew out my back.  I was prescribed hydro 10/325 every 6 hours as needed for back and leg pain.  6 months later the hydro stopped working and i was prescribed oxy 10/325 every six hours.  To make a long story short i reached 10-12 pills a day for the past 12 months.  I know I have a problem and a few months ago i tried to stop but i could not make it past day 2.  I am scared and feel lonely even though i am part of a family of 5.  I dont know what to do for I have run out of pills and feel like i will never make it thru the withdrawal process.  Can somebody please help me and give me an idea of what i can expect the next 5 days???  just a small timeline of when things will get better will help.  Does the Thomas recipe work??  please any help will be appreciated.  I have a family and I am scared to death.  PLEASE

[gnarly_1]

Hi  and welcome to the forum.....well congrats on taking you life back  we do home detox's every day here....right now wile your still feeling better get out and pick up a case of gatoraid your going to need to force the fluids  it is very ez to get dehydrated wile going threw this    pick up a big jar of epsom salt ....a hot soak with this will help most of the symptoms you may need several a day....rent a bunch of movies it will give you something to do wile your up all night  most people do not sleep wile going threw this....prepare yourself mentally this is 1/3 phyical and 2/3 mental be ready to fight it out on both fronts ..try not to be afraid it is always worst in our minds then it turns out to be...a positive attitude is the best thing you can bring to the table  it makes the difference between suffering or just being uncomfortable suffering is a choice....I have said this a million times  ''but you just got to be ok without being ok for a wile'' this to shale pass...as for a time line by the end of today you will be in acute withdrawal it will get progressively worst for the next few days  but then around day 5 the phyical part will let go of you  this forum was a huge help when I detoxed off methadone post post and post some more where all here to help....may God be with you
............................................Gnarly..................................

[oxypain101]

Thank you so much for your response.  So when i wake up tomm morning I will be the the midst of withdrawals???  I know i sound annoying but im trying to give me selfish a finish line...at least for the withdrawals.  I know this will be a long road to recovery, but i never to well with the physical part :(

Oh i cant wait til monday moring.  That will be day 5 complete.  Thank you so much and i will take your advice and get the gatoriad and the epsom salt.  it just ***** becuase i have to work today tomm and friday and maybe sat.  Oh well, i got myself into this mess i need to get myself out of this mess.  Will try to stay focus and positive as possible.  Look at that its almost 4 hours without a pill... thats the longest i've done awake in 12 months.  come on monday get here.

[gnarly_1]

Hi  well we have a lot of members who have worked threw this  keeping bizzy will take your mind off how lousy you feel so work can be a good thing.....this is all about attitude from here on in it makes a huge difference ....just know it is so so worth it to be free from that ball and chain  we will talk about aftercare in the near future....Gnarly

[Frogger76]

Hey there!! Just wanted to chime in and offer you my support and encouragement while your going thru this. Gnarly gave ya some great advise, as always. Just remember to stay hydrated, eat a little, even if ya don't feel like it, and try to stay physically and mentally busy. Read, watch movies (the funnier the better), go out for as many walks as you can stand.  If your mind ain't busy, it tends to dwell on each and every symptom your having, only making it worse, IMO. As far as the length of your wds, for many days 3-6 are the worst, then you turn that corner, and start feeling tons better. Everyone's different though. So like gnarly said it's kinda hard to give a timeline. But on average it's usually 5-10 of heck.

Anyways, good luck to you! Keep us updated!!! Take care...

[oxypain101]

Gnarly and Frogger,

thanks so much.  Not sure if its a good idea to count hours, but i am almost at 5 hours no oxy.  I am starting to feel sluggish and a little achy.  Oh boy!!!  this is not going to be fun, but i plan on getting thru this part once and for all.  I look forward to all the support on this forum because right now you guys are the only ones who understand what i am going thru.  This feeling really ***** and its awful to feel this low.  I wish my back never went out and i thought i could control these damn pills.  I remember my friends telling NOT to take them because it is easy to get hooked.  I thought they were crazy.  16 months later i am hooked like a fish and going thru a very hard time if my life.  I wish there was a magic pill that could make me feel better, but i know i couldnt be that lucky.  This *****, but im staying focused and taking it 1 day at a time.  I will muscle thru the next 96 hours and I know it will be hell.  1 day at a time.  

[Frogger76]

Sorry your having to go thru this, yes it sux for sure. But you seem to have a positive attitude, that's very important.  It'll be rough for a few days, but it will pass, and you'll never have to go thru them again. You keep posting here as often as you need to, others will chime in soon too to give ya some pointers.  Just take it minute by minute, hour by hour. You can do this!!

[gnarly_1]

Hi.......well here is the progam...step one....you decide to get clean...that is huge dude I road the opiet train for 15yrs you lucky to stop it now it is a progressive disease that only gets worst with time...step 2  detox  this is the hardest thing physically you will ever endure ...step 3 aftercare.....this is a critical step that so many try to skip..when the pills stop does not = recovery you will need to treat the addict that is alive and well in your head long after the pills stop  I have tryed therapist a substance abuse counselor  even the pastor at my church all helped but it wasent until I joined N/A that I seen there was hope to tame the addict in my brain...N/A has givin me my life back the meetings are free and will give you some place to share where the people will understand  it is the best single thing you can do for your recovery  the meeting are only a hour long with time and working the steps you can recover...the most amazing thing....I have lost the very desire to use  something I though was impossible so google a N/A Meeting near you and go...we have a lot of people show up detoxing it will help keep posting for support
...........................................Gnarly.................................

[oxypain101]

Frogger,

thank you so much.  i am crying like a baby as i type this.  I am so upset at myself which makes being positive very hard.  this is all my fault and i know it.  Just cant believe i was taking so many pills a day.  i just pray i make it to monday morning and hope and pray i will fee somewhat better.  

thanks,
SZ

[gnarly_1]

it ok to cry  one of the hardest parts is the mental/emotional part  your emotions have been numb the whole time you used  when they start coming back it is like a roller coaster just let them out

[oxypain101]

you are amazing and have a great heart.  you actually take the time out to help.  thats amazing and GOD has def blessed you.  I am weak now and all i can do is count hours and it seems like i will never stop counting hours.  I am tired already and anxious and straight up upset.  Before my back went out i was a normal happy person.  never thought in a million years this would happen to me.  please stay close i can tell i will need as much help as i can get.  what else can i take??  what are you thought about the thomas recipe?

[Frogger76]

There's no shame in crying my friend, let it out. Your emotions will be all over the place for a little while. Please don't beat yourself up over this, we've all been there. I think the majority of us here probably started off just like you did, taking them as prescribed for pain, but some how we all just crossed that very fine line. I too was mad at myself for allowing these pills to literally control every aspect of my life, it's okay to feel that way. But now it's time to fight back, let those pills know who's in charge!  Your life is worth this fight!!!

[oxypain101]

how long you been clean my friend?

[spider6]

Hey there op, I also wanted to chime in and give support.  Your story is very similar to soooo many other's here. Grats on your decision to lead more of a controlled life where you're in the drivers seat and not the damm pills.  Just get through each breath when it's really bad and when it starts to get better, bit by bit you can look further ahead.

Cry, rant, scream, journal,  let it all go .

Prayers friend, much luck , peace. ((((8))))

[oxypain101]

Spider,

thanks for the support.  the only thing that seems to keep me positive is I know i will be free of these perc eventually.  It will be a long struggle, but a fight i am willing to fight.  I do not want to hear the word percocet every again.  its a horrible drug the more and more i read about it.  yes it helps with the pain
but the dr dont tell you how dangerous it can become.  DONE

[Frogger76]

I think keeping a journal is a great idea Spidey!! That's exactly what I did for the first 30 days. I've been clean now going on 6 1/2 years, I still read it from time to time. Just remember this is a fight for your life. You don't ever wanna go thru this again. We've all got your back!!!

Take care...

[oxypain101]

WOW 6 1/2 years!  thats amazing.  is 16 month of opiate abuse bad??  100-120mg a lot to withdrawal from?  How much were you taking and for how long?  and how bad were your withdrawal?  did you do anything diff to ease withdrawal symptoms?

[spider6]

Ya op, I had a horrific addiction to benzos back in the 90s...13yrs.  All because of doctors...and ignorance on both our parts.  Maybe they should have a simulator to make doctors go through so that they can be empathetic and knowledgeable......I think things may be different ......maybe.    Keep post and reAding. You're doing great! ((((8))))

[Frogger76]

Sixteen months isn't an excessive amount of time, but addiction is addiction, no matter how long one uses. As for me, I've used and abused just about every painkiller out there, but my worst and final addiction was with the painkiller tramadol. I was up to about 50-60 of the 50 mg tablets every day! I literally went from 60 one day to zero the next. As far as easing the wds, you could try the Thomas recipe, some say it helps a bit. I wish I'd known about it back then, cuz I woulda at least gave it a shot, lol. Believe me if there was a magic pill, we'd a found it by now;) Just hang in there!

[oxypain101]

wow thats insance 50-60 pills a day?  by tomorrow morning 24 hours would have passed with no oxy :) that in itself is a reason to celebrate...i guess?  :):):)  trying to smile

ok...leaving work now.  talk to you guys tomm or later on this evening if i have trouble sleeping :)

[Oldschool57]

I went to a suboxone doctor and was on it for one week I only had to go through withdrawals for 17 hours and it worked for mehew

[Cricketk92]

Just wanted to say Welcome and congrats on your decision to stop and get your life back!!!  It really is one of the best decisions you will ever make!  

Yes, the next week may be hellish but you CAN do it!  I posted every day my first week and the encouragement, support and advice I got here was a lifesaver!  So post all you want and someone is always around!!

Hurray for you!!!!!  ♡

[VICourageous]

Hi & Welcome.
I thought I would chime in and see how you are doing. If you can stick close to this site, we will be here for you and at each stage you go through!

We seem to wave in & out at different times. SO..usually someone is around. If you come in late at night you might hook with someone who is right with you.

I wanted to recommend the Protien Powder or Drinks full of vit/min. The immune system needs to be at a good peak to help with the physical part.
Add some Lemon & sea-salt to your water to help keep you hydrated. There will be vit/min that will help with anxiety & sleep and some for energy and motivation.

Even after 3yrs I swear by the Magnesium. The only thing is getting the right ones together. These and the D-3 oil calm me down and help me sleep to this day. Also during your w/ds the magnesium, potassium, Ds, and calcium will help and mostly at night to help with your muscles. Try to Eat very Healthy and lots of food with Antitoxins. The whole thing is to have a Healthy system to help rid these toxins. The physical is over soon and then comes the mental, as your Brain has to adjust back from the removal of these Stims. There are TONS more to say but we will take it day by day. Just keep checking in and others will share their own experiences too. Be Safe, Be Good...YOU CAN MAKE IT!! Just know in the long run working to stay clean takes Support, any or all you can get!
Bless
Vickie

[oxypain101]

I just woke up and I am feeling like a dead dog.  This is horrible and at times I lose focus and just crave 1 pill :(
It's almost 24 hours since my last pill and I feel horrible.  Scared what's to come because I know the next 4 days will be he'll :(
This is not fun at all.  Thanks all for the warm and positive messages.  Thanks

SZ

[spider6]

Hey honey....I know this suxx for you.  But here's the thing.....it's either now, or....when?  It's either this or eventually what?? ....death. Or stroke at the very worst and then you're stuck in a life with a body you're trapped in depending on another for your every need..  Holy crapp ..imagine that!!  That's what I do.

Once this is over(the physical)...that's it for that .....then we focus on the mental and moving forward ,...but right now...just resign to it...tell yourself it's a fakkin bad flu ...,push through it. We are here to support...you are not alone hon.  You're dong great and right on point.  Bless ..peace...strength..hope.  ((((8)))) Spidey hugs