Life gets harder after drugs

[stilltrying1965]

I would like to tell ya all somthing, my life is getting harder after getting clean. I dont know why but things seem to be different. They are making me feel like im all alone in this fight im in. Things area lot more difficult than i thoght they wou ld be by that i mean i find my personal life is not going to well.Meand Kim used to be so close and so in love but the drugs have destroyed that. And withot Kim well im nothing with Kim i was everything so the drgs destroyed that thet destroyed my marrage. Im trying hard to salvage my marrage i need Kim and wont be able to live mylife without her. Did druge end yo realashonship as they are destroying mine James.  PS can a marrage survive after 13 years of drg abuse im praying it can

[SophieShine]

I'm very confused here James.... what happened? Why did you decide to move out of the house?

James don't let your past eat you like it does, do something about it, therapy, meetings, what ever works for you but don't let it drag you down anymore, it destroyed enough don't you think? Most of us have crazy stories, hideous, but you have to reverse it...
Please James talk to us, let us help you.
Sending you tons of hugs. Sophie.

[vicki595]

Hey Handsome...This isn't like you!!   It's like you and Kim have done a 180 degree
turn!   This tells me something happened and Kim is upset with you.
So,what gives?  Be honest,you know you are among friends here...

Vicki  xo

[cathy5841]

James, please tell us exactly what is going on with you??  did you relapse?  whats going on with you and Kim??  we want to help you, but we need to know whats going on with you....

[avisg]

The ladys are all right what happened why did you leave and if you are using  the only way we can help is if you tell us the truth

[stilltrying1965]

Avis i promise you i have not used any durgs whatsoever But i feel like a place iv never been in before. I keep getting these pictres in my head that Kim does not want me around anymore. I love Kim so much i dont know what iv done wrong i just want to run and hide under a rock i feel that depressed i dont think Kim loves me anymore coz of what happened to me when i was young if thats true i can understand that as i dont even love myself anymore How can i be a man when iv been the victom of sexual abuse Men dont go with other nen i hate myself for letting that happen to me ,,,,,,James PS Im with Kim now and i think shes going to come on

[vicki595]

James...Are you at your brother's house?  Or with friends?   Do we have to call Kim?
Do you want to be left alone?  (I doubt it)   Get back here and talk...you know it helps.

V.  xo