Life's decisions and what they mean to those around us.

[MethMan]

I can't speak for others, but for me, years of methadone addiction and the disease helped me become a very selfish individual.
With every day getting better, it becomes clearer to me the vast amends I must make to family and friends alike.  Materialistic desires have but all vanished from my thoughts and are now being replaced with a desire to help repair emotional damage that I have caused without knowing until now.
The main benifactor of my relentless self pity and emotional wreckage was unfortunately my daughter as I was the only parent that was around to spend time with her. Mom was gone emotionally and physically most of the time so we went through life together.
Her undying love for her Dad and was shaken when after a car wreck, I was airlifted to the hospital and given Nubain.  Since I was an opiate addict, detox occurred almost immediately and I began to yell and move uncontrollably.  From the waiting room, my daughter heard me and ran back to see what the problem was only to encounter an ER doctor reviewing my chart and finally reading that I was on methadone.  When she asked what was wrong, he yelled, "Your Dad is nothing more than an Addict.". Even in as rough a shape as I was, I still remember her face.
Forgiveness is easily attained simply by asking but the emotional pain and suffering of those around us could take years to repair if at all.
Most of us here have found a way to get back our lives.  But what about those victims we left in our paths?  Do they not deserve the same dedication and time we spend on ourselves?

God Bless,
Mike

[Rex1]

This is the Thomas Recipe, all items available pretty cheap at WalmArt (Thanks MethMan),

l-tyrosine 1000 mgms 4 a day week 1 ,2 a day the next weeks.
b-6 100 mgs 2 a day
vitimines A c and E 2 A DAY OF EACH
A STRONG MULTI VITIMINE 1 A DAY
ZINC 1 ADAY
COPPER 1 A DAY
PHOSPHORUS 1 ADAY 500 MGMS
MANGANESE 1OMG 1 A DAY
CALSIUM-MAGNISUM 1 A DAY
IMODIUM FOR THE 1ST WEEK
Gatorade for Electrolites
Three Hot showers a day or HotTub

I also added L-Glutamin, an Amino Acid, also available just about anywhere.

Also (and this is number one for me) is asking Jesus Christ for help and forgivenessm, which by the way, I do not deserve. But then, this is the definition of God's grace - undeserved kindness. I believe He wants me clean, so I am asking for His help.

I will pray tonight for you and LivingDeadGirl...

Rex

[groovygirl]

That's how I was with hydros, percs whatever...my script would be gone in a few days.

[suzieneedshelp]

I use one bottle in about 4 -5 days and it is supposed to last one month.
Suz

[groovygirl]

Do you use the nasal spray?  Is that the only form Stadol comes in?  Most doctors I've spoken with around here would never prescribe it.  It has a bad reputation...for good reason I guess. How much of it do you use per day?

I used it once, and it made me feel really weird...spaced out and sick to my stomach.  I didn't like it.  I guess that is a good thing.

[suzieneedshelp]

Can you all post where u are from when u post?  It is so cool that we are allove the country..the amzing internet!   I am from Tallahassee.
Lizzy..Plz remember that stadol is very addicting and much more poptent than morphine.   I have been addicted to it for over 10 years!  hope you feel better!  I put ice bag on my head and it helps dull the  pain tremendously!
thx,
Suzie

[MethMan]

Congrats on readying yourself for phase 3.  You're already doing what it takes to help you heal.  The first couple days, just hang strong.  It's tough, but worth it. Keep repeating to yourself that "This WILL pass".  Because it will.
Day 3, you're more than likely gonna still feel pretty rough.  But if you can, TRY to get up and move.  Walk outside if there is space where no one will hassle you.  It will take your mind off the situation and will help make you feel better.  Also, just sitting under a hot shower did wonders for me.  They temporarily take the skin crawls and aches away so you can get a small break in the action.
One thing.... I don't think I saw where you were getting any detox meds from your doctor.  If that is the case, you may want to rethink that option.  Clonidine helps early on as does Ibuprofin and a mild muscle relaxer.  Your doctor can figure that all out... that's what I'm using and others have as well.
Word of caution: Clonidine, while it helps early in the process will also make you feel pretty fatigued later on.  It's a BP med that also helps with detox somehow.  There's a fine line with this one.  You need it up front, but I'd suggest tapering off after 7 days.  But then, your doctor will know what's best, not me.  I can only speak with what I've experienced.  And IF you doctor prescribes it, don't stop abruptly.  I did that and thought my head was gonna come off.  Those things are powerful.
Remember.. It WILL pass.  You'll come out the other side better for the journey.

God Bless,
Mike