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Life's decisions and what they mean to those around us.
I can't speak for others, but for me, years of methadone addiction and the disease helped me become a very selfish individual.
With every day getting better, it becomes clearer to me the vast amends I must make to family and friends alike. Materialistic desires have but all vanished from my thoughts and are now being replaced with a desire to help repair emotional damage that I have caused without knowing until now.
The main benifactor of my relentless self pity and emotional wreckage was unfortunately my daughter as I was the only parent that was around to spend time with her. Mom was gone emotionally and physically most of the time so we went through life together.
Her undying love for her Dad and was shaken when after a car wreck, I was airlifted to the hospital and given Nubain. Since I was an opiate addict, detox occurred almost immediately and I began to yell and move uncontrollably. From the waiting room, my daughter heard me and ran back to see what the problem was only to encounter an ER doctor reviewing my chart and finally reading that I was on methadone. When she asked what was wrong, he yelled, "Your Dad is nothing more than an Addict.". Even in as rough a shape as I was, I still remember her face.
Forgiveness is easily attained simply by asking but the emotional pain and suffering of those around us could take years to repair if at all.
Most of us here have found a way to get back our lives. But what about those victims we left in our paths? Do they not deserve the same dedication and time we spend on ourselves?
God Bless,
Mike
With every day getting better, it becomes clearer to me the vast amends I must make to family and friends alike. Materialistic desires have but all vanished from my thoughts and are now being replaced with a desire to help repair emotional damage that I have caused without knowing until now.
The main benifactor of my relentless self pity and emotional wreckage was unfortunately my daughter as I was the only parent that was around to spend time with her. Mom was gone emotionally and physically most of the time so we went through life together.
Her undying love for her Dad and was shaken when after a car wreck, I was airlifted to the hospital and given Nubain. Since I was an opiate addict, detox occurred almost immediately and I began to yell and move uncontrollably. From the waiting room, my daughter heard me and ran back to see what the problem was only to encounter an ER doctor reviewing my chart and finally reading that I was on methadone. When she asked what was wrong, he yelled, "Your Dad is nothing more than an Addict.". Even in as rough a shape as I was, I still remember her face.
Forgiveness is easily attained simply by asking but the emotional pain and suffering of those around us could take years to repair if at all.
Most of us here have found a way to get back our lives. But what about those victims we left in our paths? Do they not deserve the same dedication and time we spend on ourselves?
God Bless,
Mike
First of all, what is wrong with this forum today, I have posted a couple of times in the last few minutes and it says to reload or something.
Lizzy, I wrote you a long email and aol kicked me off and I lost my hotmail email to you. Talk about frustrating, I will write you again in a little while..I'm still here with you.
Hugs
Suze
Lizzy, I wrote you a long email and aol kicked me off and I lost my hotmail email to you. Talk about frustrating, I will write you again in a little while..I'm still here with you.
Hugs
Suze
Stuff is tough coming back from detox. I am facing the same sort of issues you are but reversed. It is my wife that is the one that's "assisting" me.
Here are some observations that I have gathered that MAY make sense and help you understand:
1. If your significant other is very defensive, combative and demanding, by you getting OFF meds, it's a sign of loosing CONTROL over you. This is in my case, I can not speak for yours.
2. Misery loves company. When someone is hurt, others WILL talk. "Ohh.. I'm having it hard. My Wife/Husband/Daughter/Brother/Sister/Aunt/Uncle is addicted and I have to bear the brunt. Woe is me. Don't give em the power.
3. New feelings are uncovered once we clear our head. Have they ALWAYS been there like this? Or are we just starting to see it now?
4. Society has labeled our disease as "shameful", therefore we try to hide ourselves from further injury. I've found a full frontal direct approach freaks them out. The occasional hand shake, "How ya doin'" (use southern drawl here) when prying for information really can be derailed by saying, "Well, I am finished detoxing from a major case of <enter drug of choice here> and feeling like ****. How are you doin'"?
I learned a cool tool when I got out of rehab about 2 1/2 weeks ago. When someone confronts you and you do NOT want to engage, then all you say is, "You may be right." and walk off. You're not saying they are right or they are wrong, but there is no where for them to go when you say that. Try it. They just stand there expecting you to argue and you lay that on em. They look at you like you've walked over their graves.
There's only one person that you can take care of really. You. Hang strong. There are those that would try to turn you back if they could. Don't feed them.
Love,
Mike
Here are some observations that I have gathered that MAY make sense and help you understand:
1. If your significant other is very defensive, combative and demanding, by you getting OFF meds, it's a sign of loosing CONTROL over you. This is in my case, I can not speak for yours.
2. Misery loves company. When someone is hurt, others WILL talk. "Ohh.. I'm having it hard. My Wife/Husband/Daughter/Brother/Sister/Aunt/Uncle is addicted and I have to bear the brunt. Woe is me. Don't give em the power.
3. New feelings are uncovered once we clear our head. Have they ALWAYS been there like this? Or are we just starting to see it now?
4. Society has labeled our disease as "shameful", therefore we try to hide ourselves from further injury. I've found a full frontal direct approach freaks them out. The occasional hand shake, "How ya doin'" (use southern drawl here) when prying for information really can be derailed by saying, "Well, I am finished detoxing from a major case of <enter drug of choice here> and feeling like ****. How are you doin'"?
I learned a cool tool when I got out of rehab about 2 1/2 weeks ago. When someone confronts you and you do NOT want to engage, then all you say is, "You may be right." and walk off. You're not saying they are right or they are wrong, but there is no where for them to go when you say that. Try it. They just stand there expecting you to argue and you lay that on em. They look at you like you've walked over their graves.
There's only one person that you can take care of really. You. Hang strong. There are those that would try to turn you back if they could. Don't feed them.
Love,
Mike
Stuff is tough coming back from detox. I am facing the same sort of issues you are but reversed. It is my wife that is the one that's "assisting" me.
Here are some observations that I have gathered that MAY make sense and help you understand:
1. If your significant other is very defensive, combative and demanding, by you getting OFF meds, it's a sign of loosing CONTROL over you. This is in my case, I can not speak for yours.
2. Misery loves company. When someone is hurt, others WILL talk. "Ohh.. I'm having it hard. My Wife/Husband/Daughter/Brother/Sister/Aunt/Uncle is addicted and I have to bear the brunt. Woe is me. Don't give em the power.
3. New feelings are uncovered once we clear our head. Have they ALWAYS been there like this? Or are we just starting to see it now?
4. Society has labeled our disease as "shameful", therefore we try to hide ourselves from further injury. I've found a full frontal direct approach freaks them out. The occasional hand shake, "How ya doin'" (use southern drawl here) when prying for information really can be derailed by saying, "Well, I am finished detoxing from a major case of <enter drug of choice here> and feeling like ****. How are you doin'"?
I learned a cool tool when I got out of rehab about 2 1/2 weeks ago. When someone confronts you and you do NOT want to engage, then all you say is, "You may be right." and walk off. You're not saying they are right or they are wrong, but there is no where for them to go when you say that. Try it. They just stand there expecting you to argue and you lay that on em. They look at you like you've walked over their graves.
There's only one person that you can take care of really. You. Hang strong. There are those that would try to turn you back if they could. Don't feed them.
Love,
Mike
Here are some observations that I have gathered that MAY make sense and help you understand:
1. If your significant other is very defensive, combative and demanding, by you getting OFF meds, it's a sign of loosing CONTROL over you. This is in my case, I can not speak for yours.
2. Misery loves company. When someone is hurt, others WILL talk. "Ohh.. I'm having it hard. My Wife/Husband/Daughter/Brother/Sister/Aunt/Uncle is addicted and I have to bear the brunt. Woe is me. Don't give em the power.
3. New feelings are uncovered once we clear our head. Have they ALWAYS been there like this? Or are we just starting to see it now?
4. Society has labeled our disease as "shameful", therefore we try to hide ourselves from further injury. I've found a full frontal direct approach freaks them out. The occasional hand shake, "How ya doin'" (use southern drawl here) when prying for information really can be derailed by saying, "Well, I am finished detoxing from a major case of <enter drug of choice here> and feeling like ****. How are you doin'"?
I learned a cool tool when I got out of rehab about 2 1/2 weeks ago. When someone confronts you and you do NOT want to engage, then all you say is, "You may be right." and walk off. You're not saying they are right or they are wrong, but there is no where for them to go when you say that. Try it. They just stand there expecting you to argue and you lay that on em. They look at you like you've walked over their graves.
There's only one person that you can take care of really. You. Hang strong. There are those that would try to turn you back if they could. Don't feed them.
Love,
Mike
What happened? I only posted that LONG drawn out post once, and it shows up twice. I didn't hit the post button twice but did use a new character (The one to the right of the M key capitalized). Maybe the board thought it was a header tag or something. Anyway, excuse the redundancy.
Mike
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