Norco Addiction

[Blackfoot1]

I have been taking Norco for a couple years. This is my first time admitting I have a big problem. I take up to 8 a day sometimes. I can not stop. When I try to stop for a day or two I feel like I am dying.I always have a voice in my head (not a real voice of course) telling me to take these things. I need help! I really depressed that I take them. I am just scratching the surface here with this topic.

[udoschoices]

you are talking to a wise man above, Mr. Gizzy. He is a good one to have in your corner.  Hiding money is nothing - they are always available if your addicted mind really wanted to get them. Think of it this way. How much PAIN will you feel if you keep on taking them? What do you have to LOSE? Job? Freedom? Relationship? Kids? Life? All are possible. It has taken me a LONG Time to realize all of the above.. but i finally admitted i was powerless, got my ego in check, went to some NA meetings, talked to a substance abuse counselor, told my new girlfriend, told my dealer...  all of these things are changes to how you are currently handling it.  So being held accountable is a big thing. I'll be honest - i've tried and failed more than i could count. But i keep coming back even though i had shame and guilt- because the PAIN of staying on the pill roller-coaster was greater than the pain of admitting to people i couldnt control it. And i'm a pretty in-control guy in my business, life, etc..  so that was hard. If i can do it, you can. If Gizzy can do it, you can.    Hang in there - you can do it.  I'm on day 3 for like the 40th time but i'm still coming back (thankfully, i'm around to come back).    

The fun is long gone. The high you are chasing ended a long time ago. Now you take them to feel normal, then you feel guilty, then you feel crappy, and you are here. Take the leap - you can do it.

[Blackfoot1]

What I would be willing to do to beat this? Hmm. I would have someone hide every access to money that I have. Thats where Im at.

[gizzy32]

When I kept my addiction a secret, is when I could not stop. We have to hold ourselves accountable. Our secrets keep us sick. I promise I am not preaching, just trying to help. One question ok? What are you willing to do to beat this? Most times willpower alone never works. I thought it did for years though.

[Blackfoot1]

Thanks for the support! I can't tell anybody in my home life or family about this although it would at least help them understand why I am such a moody ***** :) I have been trying to taper down to 1 or two a day. I know it does not last for ever but it seems like it will. I am most happy and sad while on these damn things. Catch 22 I guess. I just thought I was having fun with these things now I almost need them to to anything.

[gizzy32]

Welcome to the forum. Admitting you have a problem with these pills is the first step. I believe the 2nd one is asking for help and one of the most important and you have done that here by posting.  Two things stood out reading your post and that was when you said "I can not stop", and "I need help". There is help out there and I know you can do this if you want it bad enough. I always say addiction is progressive and it will keep getting worse before better until treated.

Do you think it's possible to taper down? Is there anyone close to you that you can tell about your addiction? I am so glad you found this forum, it's a great support group and we all know the pain of addiction. Best of luck, believe in yourself:)

[shiningstar500]

Have you already stopped or you are tapering right now? Withdrawls won't last forever and there are things you can do to help with them. I also think afterare will help such as NA meetings. Good luck to you and I wish you the best!

[udoschoices]

welcome to the club... i've been doing the same, you just have to reach the point where it hurts more to keep doing them. Detox is only about 3-5 days, but the mental part afterwards trying to keep those voices away is the hard part. I finally got to the point that i went to a substance abuse counselor and NA meetings and back on here. This is a good place to start, i encourage you to stay here there are a lot of helpful people. I'm on day 3.. it can be done, i've done the detox WAY too many times but tired of the constant on/off so i'm making every effort i can to make this the last time. You can do it - you are not alone