jeet??? (haa\ ha...Southerism for "did you eat"?)
ok. i got the foot tapping, biting my nails, and just a nervous feeling...like i cannot get comfortable.
cunning and powerful this drug.......i know the feeling you long for Triam....I would do...well, come to think of it, I have done all sorts of things to catch that high.....but it is like the others say...eventually you will only take the pills in a quest to feel NORMAL!!!! Its funny...we use in the first place to feel other than normal...and then later that is all we want!!
What about some exercise? If you can get out on your lunch hour and walk or run, I'd say go for it. If it's not your lunch hour and you are having the attacks, can you run in place for a while? I'm on day 2 again for the thousandth time and this time I'm exercising and it's helping so much.
You mentioned that you had a Masters Degree? Did you ever consider a post traumatic affect from your hurricane experience? When I was quiting the narcs I used benadryl also and it helped with sleep issues a great amount. I also got in touch with some people that are involved with Eastern schools of thought. Deep breathing exercises helped. A hot shower before sleep also helped. Libraries have dvd's of tai chi and cho gong - accupressure works on some things. I have never done accupuncture (creeps me out!) but it is also highly recomended. Got to find the "stop" button on that fast forward ...
That's a good idea; when I picture myself in the future one thing I don't want in the picture are pills! We don't want to believe it because it's so hard to get there...but have to think that if we keep working hard....we will want to get out there in the play house for that tea party more than ever....
What other choice do we have. It CAN be done....so we have to MAKE it be done.