Mental games, depression starting

Question

day 10 and i thought i'd be on cloud 9...well not so much, actually struggling today. Didnt sleep well at all last night. leg cramps still. anyway feeling down and keep thinking about pills. trying so hard to get that demon out of my head. ughhh...i hope i can do this.

dbrowneyedgirl · Answer

Don't let your mind haunt you bcuz it will. It seems like the mind never rests. The less we do the more time we pay attention to what's going on in our heads and for me that's not good. Try to stay in your heart today. It is not easy but we have to stay strong together & hang in there when things aren't so good. Hey as long as you don't take any pills today then you've accomplished sometjing very big. Get out and go for that walk you will feel SO good when you're done walking. Try running for 30 seconds while you're out walking, get your heart pumping. I'm a runner and also struggling with gettin my butt in gear to go out there and do it.  Or try to find an NA meeting to get you out of the house and out of your head for an hour at least. Congrats on 10 days! Be proud & hang in there and hang on TIGHT. Do NOT let go. 

And on that note I'm putting my running shoes on. I also have to get out of my mind. If nothing else just for today I will not use. Even if I don't do a damn thing today but that

Jaybird30 · Answer

Each day the mental lapses shou start to shorten!  I'm on day 5 and feel awesome so far this morning but I know the little devil is lurking!  He shouldn't be gone for few days yet!  But as long as the feel good out lasts the feel bad I'm a happy camper!  Be strong and ride the coaster!  I've learned to enjoy this part because freedom is in reach now!!  The fog has lifted!!!

chad28ala · Answer

Congrats, you and I are going to do this. Day 3 for me and the leg thing is awful. I am self employed also, but I think it's best I stay away from office right now. Might not be to nice. LOL, Hang in there, this board is an awesome inspiration for me and every so often I make myself get up and do a little something and for the past two hours I have had on some upbeat music, feeling a little better. Try the music thing, seriously it has helped alot this morning.

sweatinit · Answer

i know i can do this...had a weak moment earlier. was feeling somewhat defeated. did some reading and feel much better. problem is i work from home and i have to be here alllll day. will try to take a walk later and get some fresh air. 

Thanks for your support. it really mena a lot!!

gizzy32 · Answer

Well done on double digits now. Once w/d's are over, the mental part is what jumps up and bites most of us in the ***. Try to stay busy and get all the support you can, you DON'T want to go back to the pills. You can do this, stay strong and congrats again.