Hi to everyone wanted to stop in wish everyone Merry Christmas.I'm now almost 6 months clean what a different this holiday season has been for me.I can remember last year I was srambling around trying to figure out how to buy some oxy knowing in my heart we didn't have money to buy them but that didn't stop me.Running late to family's because of me picking up a shift at work to buy them ugh makes me sick to think about it.I have noticed my emotions are on high alert missing my brother alot still feeling very guilty for all I did to get them stupid pills.My back hurts still I try to take it easy when I can.I can't change my past I can only move forward so that's what I'm doing I difently have been hitting meetings a little more this holiday season.Hope everyone has a nice Christmas God bless to all