Misery loves company

[Acb8810]

Well... This is the first time I am posting anything online. My problem began when I started taking pain killers for fun about 1 1/2-2 years ago. My fiancé and I have an amazing relationship, we do everything together. Unfortunately, we also did drugs together too. We started building a tolerence to the percocet 5 and 10 and bumped up to 15 and 30s. After a few months we finally tried Oxy. BIG MISTAKE!!!! Now we are hooked on these things. We don't ever seem to have money bc we have this espensive habit. We have tries to quit this horrible horrible habit many times. But one day I will feel strong and he breaks down and gets one, so we influenxc each other which *****!! It has gotten to the point where we don't want to do anything unless we have some oxys. I want to enjoy the simple things in life again! We have a daughter who is currently away on vacation this week with my mother. We decided this is the best week to try cold turkey again. We figured we can just be lazy and try to sleep if we can. I just need some advice. For the physical withdrawal, mental??? It's so hard, but I'm sick of feeling like a piece of crap!! I also want to clean up before our wedding and honeymoon so we can enjoy it. I just want to remember what it feels like to be sober and happy again. I love my daughter and we just want to be the best parents we can be, we just made a big mistake and we are dealing with the consequences now. Maybe then I can stop my antidepressants. Any advise is greatly appreciated!!

[MattTheAttorney]

If you really want to get clean, you will have to separate yourself from your connect.  Mine was also a very close friend.  She was like family, but I havent spoken with her since I got clean.  

The anxiousness and the anxiety are a big part of the withdrawls, at least they were for me.  Try the Hylands Restless Legs for the jitters.  They wont take them away, but they will help a little.  The first few days for me were teh worst.  Days 1-3 were bad, after that it got progressively better.  

Sleep is going to be difficult for you, but use your fiance and help each other through this.  I will be thinking good thoughts for you.  How is your fiance doing right now?

Matt

[Acb8810]

Thank you all for sharing your stories and for the advice. I noticed signs of withdrawal the other day when it was only day 1. I have the restless legs, restless arms, and what my fiancé and I like to call the stretches. When you just can't atop stretching. It was horrible. I had my friend over and I couldn't sit still, it had just hit me out of nowhere! We were hanging out for about 3 hours and as soon as we sat down to relax and watch tv I had to make her leave because I couldn't sit still. I felt like my skin was crawling. Right at that point I realized how bad I had let things get. I constantly anxious,  I always feel like i'm waiting for something. When I'm sober I'm waiting for a pill. When I'm high I feel like i'm anxious and waiting to be sober. I can't win. This is exactly why I need to do this. We CAN do this! I am going to try to keep posting. It's nice knowing my fiancé and I aren't the only ones going throigh this, it's really Important being able to talk to people about this. Oh yeah, our biggest problem is we are really good friends with our supplier. But we don't want to lose our friendship.

[MattTheAttorney]

Congrats on your decision to quit.  My story (and my fiance's story) is very similar to yours.  We both started taking pills (vics/percodan), then came teh oxys and as we all know, that is a very slippery slope.  When I quit I was between 80mg (rarely) and 120-160mg (usually) of oxys a day.  My fiance was usually about 80 mg oxys.

I wont lie to you, the w/d were hell, but we did it together.  It sucked, but I have never loved that woman more than I do know.  I never knew how strong she was until I saw her fight this battle.

I am two weeks clean today, she is 13 days.  It can be done.  You have been given some great advice above.  Look on the right side of teh page under teh health section for the Thomas recipe.  You will need the imodium and tons of fluids.  GOOD LUCK, and keep posting.

Matt

[NoMore37]

I said I took my last dose sunday... I meant saturday. getting my days mixed up. I didn't have anything on Sunday.

[NoMore37]

Hi there.. today is the start of my day 2, I took my last dose of perc 10's, 4 of them on Sunday at 3, and it has been 43 hours since then!! I thought the w/d's were gonna be horrible. I was taking about 120 to 160mgs of percs a day for the past 6 months, and the same amount of norco before that.. I would wake up in the morning and feel so crappy, I had the worst leg cramps and couldn't move for about an hour until the meds kicked in!! and if I went too long in between doses, I would start to feel like I was getting sick. I just knew I was going to have the worst w/d's ever!!!! I did not want to wake up yesterday, first day with no pills, but I got up and I was lathergic and the leg cramps kicked almost immediately after getting out of bed ( I dont have the restless leg thing that alot of ppl here have, I have severe leg cramps and it hurts) I suffered with only those symptoms on day 1.. leg cramps and feeling week and lethargic o and a little of the runs. My sis in law called me and we talked, she said I sounded amazing. I couldn't believe how mild the symptoms were that I had and when I woke up this morning and got out of bed...... NO LEG CRAMPS!! and for some reason I feel really good today. I know that everyone says day 3 and 4 are the worst... so I'm not expecting it to keep going this easy. I just feel tired and weak today.  All I am saying is that everybody is different and we all experience things differently. I am not trying to rub in how easy it had been going for me so far.. Just wanted to share my experience, thus far. I am still expecting it to get worse, but so far my symptoms haven't been as bad as my mind made it out to be. Seriously I was not looking forward to waking up yesterday!! It's good that you don't have your daughter, as it is hard to take care of children, I felt so weak yesterday and my husband was home to take care of our 5yr old daughter.. and today my 18yr old son is taking care of her.. feeding her etc  just because I feel weak and dizzy still.  So if you don't have to worry about taking care of your daughter and don't have to work.. it is a good time to stop this hell you are living in!! you can rest and worry about you. I pray and hope your experience is similar to mine. I feel blessed and have done a lot of praying as well as other ppl praying for me! And I hope it's ok that I shared my experience here on your post?? I just wanted to share the fear I had.. it was super bad and not even close to the way it is happening!!! Good luck. You can do this!!!

[chad28ala]

I know where you are coming from..This week is the time while your daughter is away. It will make it a million times better not having to do anything. I took off this week for the same reason, Lortab is myDOC and I have done this twice before. I just keep thinking that I lived 35 years without this stuff, and I can do it again. Your mind likes to trick u into thinkin u can't, but I know we can and we must. There really is no choice. If we continue down this destructive path, there is only more pain in our futures. I am trying to go Cold Turkey this week, I am going to go Cold Turkey. Please look at this like you have no choice in the matter, because if we continue our lives and the lives of our family will be so negatively impacted it's just not worth it. I wish u guys be best of luck!  
PS, get plenty of Immodium,type of tylenol or advil,  drink tons of fluids and hot baths.