Misunderstood

[catlover8]

I feel like my post last night was misunderstood. I keep saying that Thursday will be my first day cold turkey. I then wanted to move it up to Wednesday because I got so tired of wondering how bad I was going to feel. The only thing stopping me is that I have to be able to get through my classes at work. I have been taking the same amount as always, about ten a day. It messed with my mind. I should have been tappering or something. At least then I would have some idea of what I was going to feel like this weekend. I think some people on here thought I was talking about moving my quit date back. That is incorrect. I was actually going to move it forward. I did not do this because I need to get through work the rest of the week. I am of the mind now that I just have to do this how it works for me. I cannot take of days from work, so whatever I do had to work with that. Many of you asked about how many pills I have left. About 15 would be the answer. I will not call anyone or waste any money on any more. I will do this this weekend no looking back. I just took my first does of 5 HTP. Im so hoping it might help with my depression a little bit. Either way, I will fight through this and by Monday, there will be no more wondering. I will be at least three days in to my sober life.

[fuzzypeach27]

Hi Babe, Fuzzy here I said Monday, then I just did it on the Saturday cos I was ready. You'll know when AL your ready. Its up to you!!!Its hard but not impossible.

Keep posting. No one judges on this site. We are here to talk an support.

GOOD LUCK PET

[sweatinit]

Cat, God works in mysterious ways, huh?

[catlover8]

My mom told me there is a possibility that we might have a snow day on Friday. I looked and sure enough, there will be snow. This means I might now have school or maybe have a half day. That would be really good for the detox. I could have an extra day.

[pharma9]

Crystal...you are amazing.You did a great job getting to day 9 and counting.Your description of your detox shows you are determined and when you get over this awful hump in your life,it will become better because you will make it so.
Your advice is spot on.

[pharma9]

Cat...hun..you are just a little nervous and afraid of the future without your chemical crutch.That is not a crutch,but a stick that beats you down.
You were very brave when you cut off your sources and now can bravely go forward.
You are an intelligent girl and can and will do this because you know you have to and it will be for the better.
After approx 1 week of withdrawals you will be on your way to a new life.By Easter you will be clean and saving some money and your life.
You will do fine and I am looking forward to seeing your positive progress.

[crystalbluemy3]

Man do I know how you feel! I was so scared to quit...I had quit cold turkey once before and oh it was hell, my body hurt in places like being crushed, I shook, sweat, rocked and got angry, lashed out, depression, you name it. I am 9 days clean today after 3 1/2 yrs on 18 10 mg vicodines a day! I almost died twice! I finally came up with my own plan. I took my last 12 pills, cut 6 of them in half then cut the other 6 into quarters. I tapered off that way, making the times between taking them further and further apart. I drank chamomile tea...absolutelly NO caffiene! the caffiene is a major stimulant and makes you jittery anyways right? so quit all caffiene! I drank decaff and decaff tea, listened to soft classical music and suffered slowly but TOLERABLY through it! I am raising 2 teen daughters and they never even knew what I was and am going through! it worked for me but of course you have to do whats best for you. I dont know what type of job you have or if you have a trusted boss or advisor there but let me tell you, youd be surpized that mabey you might be able to talk to someone higher up for support? just a thought...there are alot of compassionate employers out there who might even see that your honestly and strenght of character is an asset!!! just go for it and try and way you can! best wishes, crystal

[catlover8]

I guess I just started to feel like no one was understanding. My brain is not working. I am plain depressed and I cannot get my thoughts together. I have to remember why I am doing this. My health, to be out from the hold of something always scared about where I would get my next fix or how sick I would be if I stopped. I need to get some perspective everyone. I feel so depressed about everything,

[Dadof5kids1973]

Go cat go! You wont be sorry in a week from now. You will wonder why you didnt do it be4 now.

[avisg]

LOL ok then there is no taper time ....

we will be here to help you as much as we can you can do it !!!!

[dominosarah]

She is jumping tomorrow avis!!

[dominosarah]

Your going to do this and you will make it to the other side!!!  I think it is exciting just knowing that you are taking charge of your life!!         sara

[avisg]

I would try to taper a bit these last fews days that will prepare your body a little bit