Hardest drop yet..having a rough time

[Sad_Woman]

I guess it had to happen. I dropped a few days ago to .5 of a milligram of sub. Up until now the wds have been tolerable..they still are really but my mind has gone awry. It must be the addictions last ditch attempt at sucking me in. I'm in a dark place right now. The anxiety is high and my patience is non existent. I will not fold. I will not go back up in my dose. I WANT OFF!! I just wish my head would leave me alone. Here I thought after tapering for so long that the last lousy little bit would be a piece of cake. Yeah right. I know I need to just brace through this and hang on. Soon my addict mind will realize I'm not caving and leave me alone and my anxiety and anger will fade. Just having a rough time today. Just want this OVER.

[donewitis]

You got through yesterday..you can get through today. Sometimes it's just a minute at a time. I'm rootin' for ya!

[vicki595]

Hey!   You've done so well!  Try not to let this little bit weigh you down;you're almost there!

I'm not suggesting you do this but some folks taper down to crumbs and really slow the taper down at this point. Talk it over with your doctor.  Just know this is usual.

Have we ever talked about aftercare of some kind?  Some support in this area would help quite a bit!  Keep checking in; I've got my eye on you!!               xo

[Sad_Woman]

Thank you Sarah. I'm so close, in fact I really doubt this .5 is doing squat and after speaking with the doctor tommorow to get his opinion, I may well jump after the weekend. The original plan was to go from here to .25 and then jump but seeing as I'm feeling as crappy as I will probably be jumping in my mind I might as well get this over with. But of course need the docs blessing on that. Even though I think .25 would be pointless he might want me to do that so we'll see. Thanks for the reply :)

[dominosarah]

We are all in your corner pulling for you.  You can do this as you know the pay off will bring you great joy~~sara

[Sad_Woman]

Well thanks for listening. Yes I'm very determined but that doesn't make me immune to the reasons why this stuff is so hard to get off of because where the physical crap doesn't get you the mental will. It's a grind. A long long grind but I know in the end it'll be worth it. It just ***** feeling like this. But tommorow is a new day and hopefully I'll feel a little more stable. I hope so. Thanks for being there, hoped I would get a response.

[donewitis]

I just wanted to let you know I'm listening. I hear the determination and that is powerful.