Need help with getting off methadone

[Smilesonceagain]

Ive been taking methadone for about 6 days. I've only been off pills for 4 days. I was taking at least 3 80 mg a day. Addiction started three years ago when my boyfriend, at the time, started getting pain pills. First they were perc 10's, then the great opana. Started snorting that and was addicted ever since. I was on/off suboxone (tiny peices) but still using pills very couple of days or so. Met new guy who has a script and started taking his meds, he is now off them completely. He got off before I met him using methadone he had. I started 60 mg a day for the first couple days and now I am on 20 mg a day. Hoping tomorrow to go down to one 10 mg pill a day. I am debating going on suboxone when I run out of these methadone. ( I have about 6 left) I tried going on suboxone first but took it too early and suffered from precipitating withdrawals for 24-48 hours. I'd like to get off the methadone and suffer almost no withdrawals but that seems almost impossible, correct?
Even with the methadone, I feel like getting high. I am so depressed, I cry all day and night. I need to start feeling better. I can't deal with the depression... I am in awe of the people who are getting off these things with nothing. I never ever thought this would happen to me, I have an addict sister who's live I watched go down the drain from opiate use. And yet here I am. Please let me know what I should do to get off these. I started taking my dads lexapro to help with the depression but it's only been one day with that. I can't eat at all (I'm hungry but nothing tastes good) I am able to sleep.
Please let me know if anyone can offer some help with weening off the methadone. Will I feel a wd if taking it under two weeks? Any help is greatly appreciated!!

[IBKleen]

I am glad to hear you will get a script for the Lexapro and be under a doctor's care. Hun, depression is a tough one. If you were suffering with depression before using the drugs then it may be that yours is a chemical imbalance. That is nothing to be ashamed of. Many, many people have that. It becomes even harder for addicts when we introduce opiates and really mess with our brain chemistry. It is going to take time and in your case, maybe medication (Lexapro) to get to a point where you are stabilized. You are going to have to get off of the Methadone and anything else in order to do that. Can you talk to your psychiatrist about this? Maybe he can come up with a plan that you can stick to. You need to share your thoughts and feelings with him as well. this is some serious stuff.

It is quiet here on the weekends so be patient as other members come in and can share their experiences with you. Stick around, okay? Keep talking--it does help.

[hogheavenme]

You really have TOO many issues going on right now to try and face one completely and do it right the first time.  Why so many at this one point?  Can you start with one issue and take care of it and then move on because when u do one issue your going to have little issues come up from it and there is NO way u can focus on one at a time and do it right when u have so much going on? I bet u feel so overwhelmed it isn't funny right? Girl, slow it down (it doesnt have to be done in a day), pick and choose and then concore! What do u think?
Hereforu

[Smilesonceagain]

I have been on lexapro before. Before these pain pills, but stopped taking it due to not having insurance. I will be getting a script for this, when I go to my psychiatrist, which I have an appt for. I wanted to start it earlier so it started to work earlier. My depression is almost unbearable!! I can't go to an inpatient because of my job. I have support through my boyfriend but how can I get over this depression? Will it ever subside? I just want to feel happiness again...

[IBKleen]

Hi & WElcome,

I am sorry hun but we can't provide tapering information here. It is a violation of our guidelines and for good reason. We don't know your medical background and there are no doctors here so it would be irresponsible for us to give that information--and dangerous as well.

What I see is a pattern of self-medicating by you and now you are looking to get on Suboxone for the Methadone and taking Lexapro without a doctor. this is all dangerous behavior and it is a vicious cycle.

Have you considered inpatient treatment? I ask because you will need to treat not just for the drugs but for the issues that are leading you to this. Is this something you have thought about?