Need some hope

Question

Hello i have been reading this site for a while, and I need hope- somehwere to start.  I have been taking hydocodone for several years.  I have tried to stop on my own.  I feel hopeless.  I have used xanax, valium, soma, and all of these other things to help me get thru withdrawals but I can never get past dropping that last pill.  This last time I tried to stop I went about 19 hours and then freaked out and took more.  I feel like I just need some hope. I am sick of living like this.

jossysmom · Answer

Well, this is a good place to start, as there are plenty of people here ,just like you, with some good clean time who can help you. I hope you are in this for the long haul and really want to get clean because if you really want it and get a good plan (meetings, counseling, working the 12 steps...etc...) then it is definetely possible. Hopefully someone will jump on here and have some encouraging words for you. Also, more details might help us to understand the extent of what you're going through. What exactly are you asking? Do you need help tapering or just lots of support while going CT? Just let us know exactly how much you were taking and how often and how long...Are you taking any other meds? Also, tell us about yourself...if you don't mind. You aren't alone so don't EVER let this disease tell you so. Good luck!

womanhope · Answer

I just want to quit.  I have children that I am raising on my own/  It's like my medicine to get through the day.  I sometimes do cocaine.  I quit that for a few years, and have done it about 5 times in the last 2 months.  I just want the strantgh to walk away from all of this.  I don't even feel good on these things anymore its just the part where I have to stop debilitates me and so I leep taking them 
i feel really alone and today i have just been trying to get through minute by minute without buying more pills

tray_c · Answer

I am sorry you are having a hard time. I am day three off Hydrocodone and Oxycodone. It has been HORRIBLE. I understand what you are talking about, the anxiety and fear of the last pill. Maybe a taper is better than cold turkey. I hope you get through this. I am hoping I will get through too. I wish I had good advice for you, but I mostly posted to tell you that you aren't alone.