Starting over - Yet again.

[justme__]

Okay so I haven't posted in a while. (a week is a while to me!!) Anyways, I found out I was pregnant about a week ago. I was 34 or so days clean from Hydro! I was so excited!!! Very Very excited. I was on Zoloft and Xanax at the time of conception so I asked my doctor and she said all would be okay. I got off of the zoloft and xanax (very horrible times by the way.. ) and was feeling great. I started getting bad bad pains, and cramps. My doctor ordered me an ultrasound. So I went and got the ultrasound and they couldn't find anything in my uterus. They said I might have an ectopic pregnancy and that I needed lots more tests done. This last weekend, I was very depressed and felt like giving up. I took a norco (ughh...) and I felt so down and so low and I couldn't believe after being clean for 37 days WHY would I do this???? Now its day 2 AGAIN and I feel like such a failure. I still have a chance at this pregnancy, and I feel like I have failed my friends, my family and my unborn child that may have a chance at life!!! Why do these drugs make you do such insane things?

One more thing: No judgemental people please. I understand I shouldn't have taken a norco after knowing I was pregnant. I guess thats why im reaching out?? I am not really sure right now and i'm very confused, I feel hopeless and I feel like I am just a big FAILURE.

Thank you for reading. =/

[Jimmy1975]

Everyone  has a setback or two . One norco is not going to set you back 37 days . I had a procedure a week ago and they gave me Fyntanal boy was I feeling no pain and then I got scared . Guess what ? I didn`t go back to my old ways . Hang in there and don`t be so hard on yourself .We are here for you as you are for us !  Jimmy

[broknbck]

Hey, i agree with mr. sunshine. Do not dwell on what is done.

It is just the lie that stays in our brains that the pills make everything better. because there was a time that it did. but of course it didn't last very long before it took way more from us than it had ever given us. and we are smarter now and know that.

I hope everything is going to be just great with the baby and you.

[justme__]

Thank you so much guys. It means so much to me to hear such motivating words. Joann, I will call my doctor in the morning. I am starting to get a bit worried. vic and sunshine, thank you thank you thank you. And Lisa, It was just one norco.. I do agree that it wasn't very much and I don't want to throw away my clean days. But I still feel like I failed! Thank you.. I will definitely PM you soon. You guys are so helpful and help me to be able to keep my head up and move on. I knew I posted for a reason!! [=

[sadinmichigan]

I just want you to know that I am keeping you in my prayers. I know that this had to have been a very stressful and depressing to find out..I pray that all is ok..don't beat yourself up over taking 1 pill (thats all you took,right?) Addiction is very hard to over come..not impossible but very hard. do you have any close friends at home to help you get through this?..please pm me if ever you need to talk. You don't have to start over from back to day 1 for taking 1 Norco..keep your clean time and just know that this was a little bump in the road..obviously you want to do the right thing ..keep your chin up..God Bless..Lisa

[sunshinedaydream3]

ur definately not a loser
a loser would not be back on here
a loser wouldn't be trying
a loser would give up

im proud of you
ur gonna make a great mother

im here for ya
u can do this

[joann1975]

Honey...keep trying. I know the pain it's serious pain if you do have an ectopic pregnancy. My personal opinion is if you only took 2 and that was that...it was a bump in the road....I don't know if you threw away all your clean days or not...but that's my opinion and you were having serious pain.

The drugs ARE evil though...that's why we do this horrible stuff on them!

Again, like in my PM I encourage you to call the dr in the morning and stress to them the amount of pain you are in ok?

Love & Prayers,
JoAnn

[Vicotram]

Keep on tryin I have failed so many times but keep on tryin you can do it don't take any more and keep moving foward you can do it