Hi Family. I am off the Opana ER now, and off the Suboxone, (which I had to detox AGAIN FROM). I have been a week after the last detox in a therapy rehab program in Florida. I live with my daughter of 8-years-old and my husband in GA. Prior to being away for this last 11 day detox and week of rehab. concealing process, i was away in March for 10 days for the Opana detox and two weeks of this counseing rehab program. I have been away for most of March and April facing my issues. Prior to that it was a "hard taper to lower the amount of Opana for 4 months." I don't know how she was effected by this time either. Clearly I wasn't a strong, clear mother.
Recently she told me "please come home mom. I need you. But I don't want to say anything that will make you come home earlier (my husband in his desire to support me has told Abigail this). I think it will be life-changing for me to stay here for 2 more weeks. I am broken-hearted over it, and have a way of taking things like this out of perspective (i.e. I know i am doing this to help her). And I am having a lot of rebound pain after the two Opiates over a period of 5 years. It will be good for me to stay here at this counseling program to learn to live through this rebound pain as well.
We have a counseling session today here in Florida. How would you suggest I help Abigail understand I am doing this program for her, instead of Mommy being away to make her sad. I really appreciate any suggestions you may have. This is breaking my heart. Abigail has grown up with a mom suffering from back pain and drug addiction (prescription pill) for most of her life. I want things to be so different. I want to be a strong Mother in our home that isn't struck by panic and fear at every corner. I think I can make great gains if I stay in Florida longer.
I am wanting to have a good life with her, even if I have to live with pain. My husband is supportive and has been wonderful with our daughter. Please give me counsel. We are a Christian family, so godly counsel is so appreciated. I am a member of AA also. I stopped drinking 16 years ago, but developed back and pain issues over the last decade).
Thanks so much,
Marie