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I have tried it all. Cant afford rehab or suboxens. I guess eventually it will end my life. Dont know wny but my mind just doesnt get it. sorry folks. Been at this for 2 years. Nothing works for me
Was just thinking of you and wondering how your doing? Tap in when you can ok? xx
You are doing great!! Its progress, not perfection; and you are doing that (making progress, I mean). Keep up the good work, I am in your corner. kk
I am going into my appointment now. Kind of nervous. Will let you all know what happens.
Fight through it dede! Feel the love and support that is surrounding you right now! Take some deep cleansing breaths! If it's not too late where you are, get yourself outside and breath In the air! A short walk if possible! Walks outside saved my butt many times! It will clear your mind! You are doing great and are taking small steps! Just keep moving forward! Don't look back! You are gonna make it! Gather strength from everyone! Keep posting! We are here with you holding your hand and arms around your shoulder!
Started out ok vicki but as the day progressed so did the anxiety and the cravings. I finally just came to my bedroom and am watching tv hoping I can get some sleep. I am so ready for my appointment tomorrow.
You are doing great Dede! You have a ton of support here and it will feel so good tomorrow to go to counseling. Keep your eye on the prize and read your journal entries if things get tough. You are an inspiration doing this on your own. It gives many people on here hope I am sure of it.
Hi Dede! To me, this is the hardest spot to be in: limited funds, little to no support, and living ALONE! Very, very difficult to pull it together and reach out...it's so much easier and more comfortable to just go with the flow...
BUT...here you are going after it! Remarkable! Be so proud of yourself for making that appt for tomorrow! Now, just get through today and give this next to no thinking...you need the break...
Stay close...
BUT...here you are going after it! Remarkable! Be so proud of yourself for making that appt for tomorrow! Now, just get through today and give this next to no thinking...you need the break...
Stay close...
I am so very proud of you for picking up the phone and asking for help. It is a huge step. You hang in there lady.
Thank otoh. I cant wait until tomorrow. Now I just need to focus on getting thru day 3.
Hi DeDe ,
Proud of you , Your fighting for your self & winning . Day#2-3 are the hardest , your close to feeling better now . Day by day it gets better , you will feel it some days more then others but it happens . We all were where your at and know what you are going thru . You will beat this just like others have .
Read KYLE's posts , keep reading them . His post were right on when i was were your at . He & others have got me to Day#26 no pills .
Just keep fighting , you will be a new happy you soon .... Ron
Proud of you , Your fighting for your self & winning . Day#2-3 are the hardest , your close to feeling better now . Day by day it gets better , you will feel it some days more then others but it happens . We all were where your at and know what you are going thru . You will beat this just like others have .
Read KYLE's posts , keep reading them . His post were right on when i was were your at . He & others have got me to Day#26 no pills .
Just keep fighting , you will be a new happy you soon .... Ron
CONGRATULATIONS....YIPPEEE !!!. now just get thru today.. stay close to the forum for support throughout your day.
Some good news. I have and appointment tomorrow for counseling. I told them I have no insurance and they got me in asap.
I am up and beginning day 3. Getting ready to make some phone calls. Will check back later and let you all know what I find out. Hugs to all of you for not giving up on me
Dede-
I just wanted to add my voice to the cheer section for you! Can you hear it??? You are doing amazing darlin'. Whether you realize it or not right now, you are saving your life. The true genuine love that you have in your soul is speaking up and demanding that you claim your life back from the drugs. Always believe that you can do this! You can and you are! The voices in your head that say you are worthless, that too much has gone down, that you are beyond help- that is all just noise. You can silence it by acting out of love for yourself. I promise you that if you reach out, ask for help, surrender, you will be supported- ALWAYS.
In my first couple of months of sobriety I looked to this quote- A LOT (still do in fact)
'We make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.'- Carlos Castanada
The way to get strong is by being gentle with yourself. Treat yourself with the same amount of love and compassion that you treat your little grand baby with. You deserve it darlin', you do.
Wishing you peace tonight...
Lu
I just wanted to add my voice to the cheer section for you! Can you hear it??? You are doing amazing darlin'. Whether you realize it or not right now, you are saving your life. The true genuine love that you have in your soul is speaking up and demanding that you claim your life back from the drugs. Always believe that you can do this! You can and you are! The voices in your head that say you are worthless, that too much has gone down, that you are beyond help- that is all just noise. You can silence it by acting out of love for yourself. I promise you that if you reach out, ask for help, surrender, you will be supported- ALWAYS.
In my first couple of months of sobriety I looked to this quote- A LOT (still do in fact)
'We make ourselves miserable, or we make ourselves strong. The amount of work is the same.'- Carlos Castanada
The way to get strong is by being gentle with yourself. Treat yourself with the same amount of love and compassion that you treat your little grand baby with. You deserve it darlin', you do.
Wishing you peace tonight...
Lu
Clean for two days? And you were doubting yourself? In a very, very short period of time you'll be out of the physical detox crap. You are close.
And as the physical stuff subsides, so does the anxiety. It will pop it's ugly head up from time to time, but is manageable.
If you can keep your mind occupied that will help. I watched lots of stupid TV and movies; I stayed on this forum and read and posted and complained.
Give it time. We're here.
And as the physical stuff subsides, so does the anxiety. It will pop it's ugly head up from time to time, but is manageable.
If you can keep your mind occupied that will help. I watched lots of stupid TV and movies; I stayed on this forum and read and posted and complained.
Give it time. We're here.
You are doing great, i know the anxiety is a b!t ch, try to take some deep breaths, illl tell ya what worked best for me was a long hot shower, i would just stand in there and let the water run, it helps i promise. Also a bath, that works too. Keep up the good work, try some sleepy time tea and get all cozy in bed.
That kyle. Right now they anxiety is pretty rough. Dont know what to do for it. but I havent taken a pill in 2 days.
Checkin in...As said above, we are here if you need people to vent to. Most have gone through what you're experiencing; some have been in even worse situations and have made it. I know that doesn't necessary help you at this moment - I just wanted to let you know that it can be done.
Grab hold of me. I can't fix you honey. That is up to you but I will help you any way I can. You know I contacted the Health Department, The Mayor's Office and The Governor's Office. I believe in you and if you can't believe in you then lean on us until you can.
Bonnie that is they number they hospital gave me so I will call them monday. Everyone that has posted too me and reached out, you all and your encouraging words mean so sooo much to mean. I just few like I am sinking in quick sand with nothing to grab hold of and pull me out.
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