Powerful post.....Great perspective...Dede, can you tell us how much and what your taking?
It is not hopeless. I won't give up on you so you may as well get used to it. Tomorrow I will make some calls. I will message you and let you know. Try and relax for the night honey and be good to yourself.
This had been going on for years. Sometimes one or two a day and when I get more I can take up to ten percosets a day. The anxiety and the craving get me every time not to mention no one at home who cares.
I was where you are....A time will come where your emotional state can no longer handle another detox and your body will begin to fail little by little. I tell you this not to frighten you, as you already know the drill. I see we joined at the same time. It took me a year of reading and absorbing to finally make the move. If I can do it you most certainly can. I too didn't have support except for this site, by choice. Can you reveal to a dr. so you feel more secure with your detox? What are your fears in quitting?
I was also alone, completely alone! The unbelievable people here helped me and supported me through it! You will never fail as long as you keep trying! Open your mind and your heart, change your attitude! Start looking forward to a day when you will be free of this! Living a happy and long life! Picture it! It will happen for you! Keep talking! We are listening!
I also did this alone... however, you have a very large support group right here. Please don't give up... you matter!
I'm fighting my battle alone. Can't tell me mom, doctor, boyfriend, co-workers. It's a horrible battle to internalize, but just listen to the words of these great people.
Hang in There :)