On My Own

[blotout]

well methadone clinic told me id have to start the whole process over again since ive been gone more than 10 days, so id have to do intake see a doctor talk to a counselor and start going everyday again which is costly in gas, im just going to have to taper myself which is almost impossible for me, somewhere somehow i must get the willpower to control my intake and lower it, wish me luck im going to need it, ive only took 20mgs today and plan on staying there or lowering, no more 40-60mgs days for me!!! thanx again for all your support!!

[YesLife4Me]

Is going to the Dr for assistance not an option for you?  Is there any options for you at the methadone clinic?  Or is it you can't afford the gas to get there and then get the meds?  I can understand that you are trying to avoid withdraw right now, so you sought out your friend.  However, think about this please; if you are buying them from a friend, couldn't that money could go towards getting to and getting your meds at the clinic?  I tried so many times to taper by myself and I just couldn't do it.  I'd do good for a couple days, feeling kind of low on energy, but not in full blown withdraw, then take an extra one here and there to give me a little boost and next thing you know I was back in the cycle again.   We all are really hard on ourselves when we keep winding up back where we started.   We have got to change our playground and friends.  

[VICourageous]

Hi bud r u going to the clinic twice a day to pick up only what they give u???Do u have a reg dr that can give u a few pills to taper off? If u do have the pills at home please give them to someone u can trust....I would give them to my hub in the house and I could just sniff them out and find them any were. It is soooo important that we do not have them around. Then the tape plays back for a sec saying It makes me feel good one more. on & on goes the circle. I think you just need someone to dull them out...I know you want it bad bud but self control AND buying them is NO good. Please reconsider the situation of self control WE have NONE Ok lol.
Hang in I know u will get there....Do not beat your self up either.
God Bless You
vickie

[blotout]

when i left the clinic i was a level 4 only going twice a week, and if i went back now id return to level 1 and have to go again everyday which is time consuming and expensive in gas, i wish i could go 10 days without any opiates, i cant make it past 2 hear lately, i have tried and am trying, im just also having alot of depression lately and withdrawals make it worse

[blotout]

no i meant the clinic wont let you come back with the same levels after you been away from there for 10 days, i tried to use pain pills when i quit the clinic and made it 9 days b4 they ran out and i went back to my old methadone supplier and have been taking anywhere from 10-60mgs per day since around Feb 1st or so, i left the clinic at only 6mgs per day about, sorry didnt explain better

[ang_811]

U can do it. Have no doubts about yourself and go in this with a winning attitude and say ur gonna break out of this cage BC YOU deserve to live a life of freedom. We r good people with a bad disease and we do deserved a new say of life.

Take it one day at a time and keep posting here for support. I to was stuck on the methadone trap and I got off of it when I received the gift of desperation.

[YesLife4Me]

Have you been opiate free 10 days?  Sorry, Im confused since you said its been 10 days and then mentioned tapering.