Ty :) I'm going to try n/a for sure and I will give it all I have to make it work out !
yes carson the key is after care ..after many attemps to get clean my biggest mistakes were thinking i could do it on my own..i hated the thought of going to na .. being with other addicks has proved to be the way out .. just like this site helps so much so does na..dont just go to 1 meeting go to several different 1s..give it a honest try, your addiction will try 2 stop you , telling u this is stupit im not like them..but if u want what they have ( clean time ) llet them lead u to it...addiction made me do many unbelieveable things i never could imagine i would do..now i am doing it another way..and it is working !! 1 hour in a room with people like me more thenwilling to help u is not alot to be able to stay clean..im even enjoying them now !! please give it an honest try..anything is worth not going back to the hell of addiction.. f... that chase & detoxing all the time.. what i no 4 sure is... i DONT have another detox in me,, i got my life back & im gonna protect it at all cost..the same is offered to you.. you just have to take it !! just BELIEVE in your self..your worth it.. sara
Your words r very ture there is no happy ending if I was to keep on this marry go round but I've flushed my pills and now I have to deal with the after care I think this will be my only way to stay clean :)
What are you willing to do to change things up for you? Cutting off your supply would be a start. There is no happy ending to drug addiction. You have it in you to do this~
We all know how to get clean. It is the staying clean that is the hard part. Try something different this time because the old way isn't working. Pick an aftercare plan that works for you and give it a shot. You owe it to yourself to try.
Ty for the kind words ! I've done with draws before as I am now it don't scare me any more it's the staying clean that I just can't get right ! I've never done after care I think that might be the key for me !
Hey. I took roughly double what you're taking at my peak, so you're not alone, nor are you all the way in the deep end :) I quit because I had a TKR to improve my knee. It still hurts, but a lot less than before. I also quit because I was sick and tired of being sick and tired. Also, I was feeling tremendous guilt for all the money I was spending. Even with all that, I had to tell everyone what I was doing, cut off all sources, and get aftercare. If I can do it, you can too!
I suspect there are as many answers to your question as there are recovering addicts, i.e. everyone is different but anyway, my two cents is this:
You have to know, deep down why you are hiding in these pills. Admit to yourself what that is and that's half the battle in my opinion.
Get a support network, of whatever form works for you. We all need all the help we can get. Fighting this battle at all hard enough, alone, in secret it's far, far harder.
I didn't have the kind of problem that you do, as to how many I was taking, but I could see that I was be coming more and more dependent on them to where they would get to be a much worse problem than they already were. And the reason I quit and stay off of them is simply for my health. I know that they were affecting me in many more ways than I was willing to admit and when I finally had to admit it, I quit. I am not young and I don't want to ruin my health.