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One week clean
One whole precious week. I have accomplished more this week than I have in 5 years of using. I know I still have a long way too go and a lot more to accomplish and some times it feels overwhelming because I am getting pressured but wow, I am pretty proud of myself. I took care of the financials and got them off my back for now. I can answer my phone again.
I am very slowly lookiing at the mess my house is in and trying hard to do a little bit at a time. I put out weeks worth of garbage the other night. My house doesn't smell like kitty litter anymore
Oh, I have so much to do yet but I am doing something every day and every night I feel so sore and beat up but proud of what I accomplished.
I hate waking up this early but it goes with getting clean. Sore, tired, weak and all, I am one day closer to feeling better and getting my life back.
I had strong cravings last night but didn't think of using. I just ran to the store and bought cookies and a chocolate bar. It really worked. Using was not an option.
I am very slowly lookiing at the mess my house is in and trying hard to do a little bit at a time. I put out weeks worth of garbage the other night. My house doesn't smell like kitty litter anymore
Oh, I have so much to do yet but I am doing something every day and every night I feel so sore and beat up but proud of what I accomplished.
I hate waking up this early but it goes with getting clean. Sore, tired, weak and all, I am one day closer to feeling better and getting my life back.
I had strong cravings last night but didn't think of using. I just ran to the store and bought cookies and a chocolate bar. It really worked. Using was not an option.
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Pat, I know you are struggling with all the financial stuff right now and it is adding to how difficult staying clean is BUT I kinda have to agree with ImDONE in the fact of whats a couple of more months to wait ? You know I care about you and want you to succeed and take your life back!! But I too am concerned that you will lose focus on your recovery (because your focusing on everything else) and thats when we slip up.
With that said, I think the fact that you are still willing to see an Addictions counselor and attend NA/AA meetings is a FANTASTIC step and not one that is easy to do! And im so proud of you for doing it! So start with that, maybe after a session or two they can help you figure out if IP Rehab is good for you.
With that said, I think the fact that you are still willing to see an Addictions counselor and attend NA/AA meetings is a FANTASTIC step and not one that is easy to do! And im so proud of you for doing it! So start with that, maybe after a session or two they can help you figure out if IP Rehab is good for you.
Definitely don't get back into bed. The couch is a better place for resting during the day. I couldn't agree more that staying in bed will feed your depression.
Find something that needs to get done around your home, and do it. Then if you need to take a break, do it on the couch so that at least you're up (sort of). It will make you appreciate bedtime more at the end of the day if you aren't living in that room all day long.
But I'm more concerned now that you're back-peddling (a little) on the rehab. I thought it was an option for you - what's changed? See, pat, I'm afraid with time you're going to stop focusing on your recovery and that will trip you up, I promise you it will. Getting well needs to be your focus for today. Given your financial situation, it's not going to be fixed overnight - believe me, I know what I'm talking about when it comes to that. So why not focus now on getting well? Those stresses of handling all of that right now will trigger you big time. Now is the time to take it easy, work your way back, focus on aftercare. It's not the time to try to sell your home. It's been this long already, right, so what difference will a few more months really make?
Find something that needs to get done around your home, and do it. Then if you need to take a break, do it on the couch so that at least you're up (sort of). It will make you appreciate bedtime more at the end of the day if you aren't living in that room all day long.
But I'm more concerned now that you're back-peddling (a little) on the rehab. I thought it was an option for you - what's changed? See, pat, I'm afraid with time you're going to stop focusing on your recovery and that will trip you up, I promise you it will. Getting well needs to be your focus for today. Given your financial situation, it's not going to be fixed overnight - believe me, I know what I'm talking about when it comes to that. So why not focus now on getting well? Those stresses of handling all of that right now will trigger you big time. Now is the time to take it easy, work your way back, focus on aftercare. It's not the time to try to sell your home. It's been this long already, right, so what difference will a few more months really make?
The getting back into bad habit is not good for you or anyone, psychologically. It sends an "I am sick" message and its depressing. Sit down and watch TV or lay on the couch but don't crawl into bed during the day! Healthy people don't do that!
Now, ask me where I am at the moment...LMAO....I'm in bed!! It's still early here...so that's my excuse!!
Now, ask me where I am at the moment...LMAO....I'm in bed!! It's still early here...so that's my excuse!!
Thanks again for all your support. It is much needed.
I do have an appt. on Monday with a DA councilor BUT, always a but.
I can't financially do a 30 day rehab right now. There is no way in hell. The commitments I had to make to creditors make that impossible.
I have to do everything I can right now to get this house on the market and there is lots to be done.
I really wish I could do a rehab but I can't right now.
I will go for councilling and then hopefully AA or NA.
I do have an appt. on Monday with a DA councilor BUT, always a but.
I can't financially do a 30 day rehab right now. There is no way in hell. The commitments I had to make to creditors make that impossible.
I have to do everything I can right now to get this house on the market and there is lots to be done.
I really wish I could do a rehab but I can't right now.
I will go for councilling and then hopefully AA or NA.
Thanks, sunny, for mentioning aftercare. pat, you have an appt. coming up with a rehab, so take advantage of that time to put an aftercare plan in place. It's imperative you do that. That will make the difference for you this time.
Pat I am so Happy For You!!! You are takin this one day at a time and doing whatever it takes Cookies chocolate sounds Great! You go ! BatGirl!
Lets Dance! whewt!!!!!! Whewt!
I am seriously dancing doing My Move for you LOL!
have a great day My Friend I am off to work had to come on real quick to see how you were doing! I am sending you Positive Thoughts and pulling hard for you!
Lets Dance! whewt!!!!!! Whewt!
I am seriously dancing doing My Move for you LOL!
have a great day My Friend I am off to work had to come on real quick to see how you were doing! I am sending you Positive Thoughts and pulling hard for you!
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The only advice I can give is to just keep moving forward! I know I say that over and over again! Some days it will be very small things, other days it will be huge tasks! You will get through all of this in your own time! Don't let yourself get overwhelmed! For me, it is so easy to do, and that is when I crave the worst!
Take care my dear friend! I'm behind you all the way no matter what you chose! I know you will choose and clean, happy, and healthy life! You are well on your way!