4th day of having nothin!!!!

[BornofOsiris]

Hi new to this Forum, im 20 years old male, i have been ttaking 10mlg norcos for about a year maybe 2 not quite shure. the first 6 months i didnt use norcos that heavily maybe taking 4 a day if that, but the last 6 months maybe even longer my main supplier couldnt get norcos no more so i starte taking whatever i could, and yet found 40 mlg oxycontins i didnt use oxy to long, i noticed that the pills was taking over my life and luckily only put me in 1,000 dollars in debt....it could be worse right??? But luckily enough i built up the most courage and told my girlfriend, it helped alot but then after i had to build up more courage to tell my parents, i took the big step and told them...this was the most important step for me to getting clean, so now i have support and love, my father handles all of my money now and also pretty much got me out of debt, im very lucky to have such a family....but anyways im on my 4th day now and im prolly about 10x better then the first 2 days and im only having mild w/d in the morning and night thats pretty much it other then being a little more emotional then usual in the day or having minor tummy aches, now what from i read i should be going through w/d still pretty bad and my cravings arent tremendously bad, so my question was could it be possible that my w/d could be shortened because i kinda weaned off the hydro got on oxy but didnt use oxy that long. And to add on when i started using pills heavily the last six months i was taking 5 10mlg norcos at just one time maybe 3 times a day and if i had oxy i would prolly do 2 40 mlg oxys a day. And im taking a cleansing detoxing kit to help push the chemicals out of me and what i thought, was that could make the w/d's worsen, i would apreciate any help and wish luck to everyone who is trying, just remeber, this CANNOT last....this WILL NOT last....

[BornofOsiris]

I try to stay very commited and not to slip up at all, i just cant wait for the day to just be able to wake up with a clear mind and sleep for a full 8 hours of sleep....i dont know how long this will be, but for the first time in a long time im actually happy for the next day to come and looking forward to it. The mornings are tough so are the nights but im making it just by just enough to know that im going to win...all i have to do is keep on pushing , posting and talking, taking advice and giving some also....for everyone going through a struggle my heart goes out and remember this is your life not the drugs....NEVER give up =D put a smile on!


P.S.
This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last

[LateAugust]

You sound great and so very committed!  I hope you are proud of all the positive steps you are taking to ensure you have the life you deserve, one of health, love and happiness.   I am so happy to hear you have the support and love of your family.  I am sure they are so grateful to have your complete honesty and dedication for stopping your usage now.  

NA  or AA is free,  absolutely no cost at all. It may take going to different meeting places until you find your "home group" where you feel the most comfortable.  It is a great place to go and find how others are fighting their fight.....  or if your are having a bad day and need to vent,  or just a safe haven  that is without judgement.  If you do have insurance, most do have coverage for addiction,  when you are feeling better, you may want to check into what counceling  your insurance will cover.

Stay strong in your conviction and your goals!!  You are doing fabulous...  GREAT JOB!!!!

ps  thanks for your words regarding my girl....  she is in a good place and where she needs to be.

[BornofOsiris]

Thank you for the advice, and im sorry to hear about your daughter, it really broke my heart reading it....That is why im making the choice of quitting, not cause i have to, but i want to. I understand that there is any doubt of quitting, you will never make it....but i want this so bad, just to be clean, live free, no more stress of worrying about getting more pills so i dont go through withdraws, im pretty much sick of it....my family is supporting me 100% and have been a HUGE help prolly the biggest motivation for keeping me clean...I was going to look into aftercare soon, as of right now i am giving all my paychecks to my dad and he only gives me money for gas, food and i am paying him back for my debt.....i dont make much money so i would have to try to see if my insurance can cover a counselor or something, do most N/A places costs?? if so do you know about how much??

Im on day 5 now too, and staying strong

PS
This WILL NOT last...This CANNOT last...

[LateAugust]

PS         oops   she  railed  8 to 10  80 mgs in one day.   My god  in   one day,

[LateAugust]

Oh sweetie   I am the mom of an oxy  addict    and her addiction  was beyond any thing I can comprehend...   she railed/smoked     at her peak   8 to 10  mgs. a day,,,   and yes I know that is enough to kill a horse,  but your tolerance grows to a point that is what it takes just to function.  I don't mean to be crude  but she would throw up from her toes  and continue smoking again.  She has unconditional support from her family  from me    and she is only 22........  sometimes I think you believe you are invincible because you are so young.....  but this oxy  and opiate bs  has and will take more control of your life that you can even begin to imagine,      My girl went thru rehab 3 times and is now in a sober living housing.......  what I am trying so desperately to say,  is that you need after care....  the w/d's  are the easy part,  the mental  is a friggin nightmare,     PLEASE check into all the care that is available to you   whether that be  out patient  or NA/AA     Please don't let your add diction get to the point of where my daughter was........  it is hell      for you and all that love you.        Be  proud of what you have accomplished so far,  but please dont let it stop with just getting thru the w/d's.....  take advantage of every after care program available to you.   My best thoughts and wishes are with you.....  You can do this!!!

[BornofOsiris]

cravings are bad right now....i want to give up, but i know i CANT, just lookin for some support!!! please im begging

[BornofOsiris]

thank you so much, you have been a great help, a saint at that, lol but yes i have my own insurance i get from my work and i will most deffinately look into NA, plus it also helps that my step mom is also a recovered addict of percocet and she has helped alot, plus i have been taking valerian and & skullkap to help the anxiety and the restless legs it doesnt help ALOT but it takes the edge off of it, and i smoked weed to help with the stomach pains an it worked like a miracle(i have exprienced a withdrawal before this when i didnt have any pills) so im keeping myself busy, confident, open, driven, im going to do this no matter what....my life is pretty much swinging under a large pendulum, and thats a priviledge i wont give up....

once thank you so much for the help i will keep posting and let you know how everything is going, plus always good to to talk to someone else for a change

PS
This WILL NOT last....this CANNOT last.....

[refusingbondage]

awww... I remember my fist post too.. I was soo lost and desperate... this forum is FANTASTIC.. a true fellowship of amazing people who need help and who want to give others help.  You will see!  You can basically google NA meetings in your area.. I don't know where you live, but almost every town has them.. I am a true believer that addiction and drug abuse is a SYMPTOM of a much deeper problem/issue -- and this, in my opinion, is where therapy or counseling come in.  Do your parents have medical insurance for you?  If so, the insurance company can set you up with a therapist.. an addiction specialist is even better.  You can also google local therapists too.. find those meetings and talk to people -- chances are they can also guide you to the right help.  Support is crucial... I have learned (more than once) that getting clean is MUCH easier than staying clean.. its a struggle for many of us.

I really really commend you for making this decision now.  You are very smart at 20 years old.. you've not gone far enough to lose yourself completely and this is a great time to change it.  

ps -  True true.  It DOES not last forever!

[BornofOsiris]

thnx so much!!! yea i can tell how much better life is when your clear minded, i dont get so upset so easy and now college seems like it is nothing!! and would you have any advice where i could seek counseling or NA, like the internet?? This is my first time trying to quit, so im going to do it right and wont let anything like this happen again.

this was my first ever post, and when you get your first response it sure does put a BIG smile on my face =D

ps
This CANNOT last...this WILL NOT last

[refusingbondage]

Congrats on getting clean.  Everyone is very different.  Most withdrawal is anywhere from 5-7 days.. but usually improvement begins around 4 days.. you are doing great.  Not sure the exact reason yours were not as bad as most, but consider yourself lucky!  I found that earlier in life the detox was not so bad.. the more times you go through it, it seems go get worse.  You have definitely made some very good progressions in life - telling your parents was a biggie.  Support is so important.  Keep fighting and keep talking.. Once your withdrawal goes away you will need lots of support -- counseling, NA, both -- to stay clean and deal with cravings.. Just remember it is SO not worth it to give in to those cravings.. It never EVER is.. Best of luck and keep posting!

[BornofOsiris]

just looking for some words of wisdom or advice i could use some

[BornofOsiris]

lol one more thing that might help i took the norcos orally and i snorted the oxy

[BornofOsiris]

o and i forgot what is some good after care i heard thats important