Oxycodone

[zo6ls603]

I have been addicted to Hydrocodone for the past 5 years.10/500 3 a day. Well,we all know how that goes. Soon i was taking 8 pills a day and started to get really concerned about my health. I have a amazing girl friend and 1 year old daughter that are my whole life and they deserve so much more than this. So i made a huge mistake. I asked the doc to change my meds to Oycondone with out tylenol. I knew what I wanted and get gave it to me. To be honest i was taking Roxys as well for the past 2 years. Snorting only. I cant believe that it was so easy to talk my doctor into them. I have lied to my whole family for entirely way to long now. I have told the I promise im going to quit story to my girlfriend more times than i can remember and I always let her down. I really dont deserve her or any of my friends or family. I get up snort 30mgs and snort 15mgs every 3 hours until i go to bed. Ive spent over 3 grand in the past months alone pawed everything i can think of sold everything i can think of. Im sick of it. But like everyone says i am terrified of the withdraw symptoms. I sent my girlfriend and daughter down to her mothers in Florida this week so i can get off this ****. I just dont think i can do it. Today is day one and i regret deleting all of my dealers from my phone. She is so encouraging but its just so hard. Its all i think about. I am going to make a real effort but i just dont know if i can do this. I dont want to let them down cause i do feel this is my last chance at this getting my life back and restoring my relationships with my friends and family.. The thing is if i had a roxy laying next to me lol like i would it would be gone. Im in to deep and have even though of shooting myself. I gave my gun to my buddy in the police department who i have kept in the dark somehow but im scared. Really and truly scared. I want to get better. I cant stand this anymore. To make matters worse Im a commercial aircraft mechanic for Us Airways and I could lose it all to this ****. So here goes. Day one. this site has inspired me to try so i will keep updating my progress or lack there of....    

[boomchix]

EI have often wishd that I could just go back 2 the day I took that first blue but in life ther r no do overs...the tree of life is not a tree but a vine.  Each day n evry minute - evry decision is a branch n the branch u choose is the 1 that is nourishd with ur life force n the othrs wither n disappear.  The 1 thing u need 2 no is that SO much mor of this is in ur head than u realize - the power of ur own mind can b ur salvation or ur undoing - evry second n evry decision has brought u 2 where we r today - ur choice 2 send that post becuz u no u had SO many othr choices...n now hopefully u no u can make many bettr choics 4 u n ur loved 1s.  U will make mistakes but no that u need only follow that path until the next decision n there ur life can change again.  I have kicked alcohol 4 30 yrs n counting - cigarettes 4 11yrs n 9 yrs

[Teri9498]

   Hi.....you CAN do this....you have to want it bad and just keep pushing through.....I can tell you from my experience that we make the withdrawal out in our heads to be much worse than it actually is...don't let the fear stop you from taking your life back!  I was on methadone for 7+yrs just for fear of withdrawal....today I'm 9 days off .....and as bad as it gets ...it's still better than when I was high on pills.........good luck to you......a life on pills is no life!!!!!!!!!!!!!!    Teri  :)

[minn66]

Hi and welcome. I'm so glad you posted. Not going to sugar coat it. The wd will be hard. For me, just taking the plunge was the best way. We are all different though. Yet I, and others here, have done it. I don't mean to sound like a nagging mom, but do you have plenty of fluids like Gatorade, Vitamin Water, or Powerade? Try to eat, even if it is just the broth from some Ramen noodles. Crackers and fruit, especially grapes, are easy on the tummy. Bananas for potassium which helps with the restless legs. Get some Immodium, even the generic kind. It really does help. Get as many of the vitamins and supplements as you can that are listed in the Thomas recipe.

Please stay in touch with us. Post whatever is on your mind. It is really tough but we will be here to support and help any way we can.

[IwillDoThis]

Hi and Welcome - deleting the dealers numbers out of your phone was the smartest thing you could have done.  Putting up roadblocks to keep yourself strong in times of weakness are the only thing sometimes between relapsing or using.  You know what you have to do - just ride it out and get through this.  Sounds like you have a lot to be thankful for and a lot to live sober for.  Keep posting and we'll support you!