Day 3 is aweful

[stilltrying1965]

Im on day 3 now and i feel terrible. The pain in my bdy is just aweful this has to be my last time Heroin is one bad drug to get off.But im so determind to win my war gainst my demons. I have to beat it this time. my body aches with pain.Why i keep doing this i will never know.i keep haveing seziures.im constantly vmiting never f the toilet.But i have to do this my life depends on it.And when this nightmare is over ill be very happy. today i feel like giveing up,but i wont.My life will get better and my family will love me again, I only want my life back but admit this is harder than any time i have done this before. I could relly do with some support as i think it will be peaking today and tomorrow. if i can get through the next two days i think i will do this .and i could use sme sleep but that will come.....James

[taperme]

You made it through an other day and that is awesome! Keep going and stay strong. Keep choosing life and happiness...anything else is not an option. You can do it.

[stilltrying1965]

I am very ill tonight i feel so weak and im absalutely ratteling. I must get the thought of heroin out my mind.I hate it when the thought of heroin creeps into my head.Iwant to slay the B itch and ly her to rest for good. You guys help me so much and im very indebeted to you for the helpandencouragement for without it i would fail. But failure is not an option for this guy. i choose life i want to be happy.....James

[vicki595]

Okay...being your nurse...LOL...I wondered about the seizures.  But,yeah,a head injury would lower your seizure threshold...so I hope you keep taking the meds for that.

James,remember,you are doing this for yourself FIRST. It starts and ends with you. The rest will follow...  Please be good to yourself~~

Vicki  xo

[stilltrying1965]

thank you everyone you all give me so much strentgh and encouragement to keep going i wont let any of you or myself down again, i am more mentaly prepared this time and i think that is going to help me big time. I thank all of you for sticking by me and believing in me.

vikki  i have had seizures since i recieved a serious head inury years ago, i get medication for them and im usualy okay but when i am in w/ds they usualy surface, i dontknow why but it must be something to do with the drugs leaving my body or something

[ucandothis]

Way to go on three days! It will get better if hang on? Get to a meeting.....join some fellow addicts in the real world as soon as you can. You need to replace the using with something new. I promise, you will be welcomed with open arms, just like on this board, by people who understand where you are, where you have been and where you want to be, and be willing to help you get there. My name is Dave and I'm an addict. 12 days clean and going to meetings several times a week!!

[jstntime]

Hang in there James!!!!

Only 1 way in the club, glad you've figured out what we've known about you all along, that you are WORTH the membership!!!!

Goodluck and Godspeed, we are all pulling for you.

bob

[SophieShine]

Oh James, what a warrior you are!!! Congrats my friends, I'm so freaking proud of you!!! Hang in there, we're all pulling for you here...
sending you strength over the Channel, trying to send you some sunshine too!
xoxoxo. sophie.

[10356]

Good Morning from Cali James :) I can feel a change in your attitude !! Whoo Hoo Congrats James.. Day 3 !!!!!!!! Keep sipping those fluids and take your med on a regular schedule ok and remember lay on the floor if you feel a seizure coming on.. when you get clean james these will come further and further apart... You have a lot of peps sending you good will and lot of positive energy... I'm so damned proud of my Brother.. Keep looking forward James the physical is just about behind you and keep working on a good mind set and the mental will not be so difficult..
Just think James you will be clean for spring and summer :)) what wonderful times of year to again appreciate the Beauty all around you.. I hope Kim is feeling better.. give her a hug from me and a return for you.. love letakos

[Addict63]

James,

Congratulations on hanging on to day 3, one day at a time!

I'm just coming off of prescription opiates. Day 18. I got through it so far, and there IS a light at the other end of the tunnel, and it's NOT a freight train! The light is the life we yearn for and It's ours for the asking. But we must ask. This is exactly what I read you're doing, and it's all you need to do. Congratulations! You're there; with the light ahead of you.  

As far as my aftercare: I've been through WDs before; for Alcohol. Many years ago. I've been going to AA the entire time. Now I go to NA for opiates. It's so much easier for me to be with other addicts and alcoholics who are also in recovery. We're all equals. No bosses, no leaders...just a bunch of us addicted folks together for fellowship.

The 12-step programs have saved my life. The steps are designed to keep us members  finding out WHY we're addicts. It's a simple program for complex folks like us addicts and alcoholics. So far, if I stay on this course, I won't need to repeat the WDs again!

It's the determination and commitment to seek aftercare that saves our lives.

Keep posting James...

[vicki595]

Keep it up James!!  You know we're all pulling for you...

Sending another hand squeeze across The Pond !

Vicki  xo

PS   What caused the seizures?

[sweatinit]

Keep strong, my friend! Dig deep and fight through these next few days. I am praying for you like crazy today...thank God no one is here listening  or they would think I was crazy! hahaha...
You can do this and wehn you come out on the other side, you'll be so happy you did!
Kathy xxoo

[worried878]

Good 4 u james...keep moving forward

[gizzy32]

Well done on those 3 days James. A couple more days and you will be feeling so much better. Just remember how you feel right now and refuse to ever feel like this again. We are pulling for ya, stay strong.

[daisy699]

great additude!!! you are starting to look forward and see the light at the end of this sickness!! You are def. right 2-3 days and u'll be much better!!! Thanks for the laugh , I'm petite blonde and blue eyes well ha let me refraze that I was petite b4 getting prego not so much now..lol!!!!! that's great ur keepin a little journal, I still have my "folder" from rehab which is full of stuff or exercisie we had to do re: our drug use and i take a glance here and again or take out one of the motivational handouts they give to get myself centered...i remember reading a book in there and in the front cover there was a saying tht sticks w/ me daily "in remembrance lies the secret to redemption"!! I find this very true!!! Good look at heroin as the most disgusting dirty thing you can think of and associate it w/ that!!!! But very proud of ur progress every hour u make is another hour towards freedom and a fun fullfilled life!!!!! xoxo Daisy

[stilltrying1965]

Daisy im talldark skin and handsome lol.  This is the worst iv felt it feels like im dieing.Cant get anything done.im as weak as  kitten and every time i drink i through up.But i d know i will nt fail my life dependss on it.this is the hardest thingihve ever done and i dont want to go through this again never.i have kept a diary for the last three days to look back and see what iv done to myself.herin i never want to see again thanks for your support guys without you guys i dnt think i wuld be able to do this. I just need to fight today and tomorrow and the end will be insight ,,,,James

[daisy699]

Morning James!!! Day 3 whooo hoo!! Great job fighting threw the w/d's an keepin in mind this is a MUST!! So glad u haven't given up!1I actually got a big smile on my face logging on this a.m and seeing ur's is the first post I come across!1As I said u are in my thoughts and prayers and as I was praying for you I began to think "wow" what a great forum/support place I don't even no wat u look like...lol and I'm constantly pulling for you yet you do not seem a stranger to me!!!:) You should start to feel better throughout the day as they say that 72-96 hrs oare the worst for the w/d's from H......No you won;t feel like doing jumpin jacks but slowly I hope you can start holdong stuff down and getting around a little bit!!! Are you taking vitamins and do try to keep the fluids going as hard as it may be so u don't become dehydrated and every1 says that really speeds the process up of getting this crap out of your body faster!!! try a protein drink water gatorade even tylenol may help a little!!! they actually gave me ibprofen in detox but in my detox it was a quick methadine day 1 15mgsthen 10 ,10 and 5 so 4 short days then I was on my own and atually feeling ok....just a few sweats and not much energy but we are all diff!! I am sending u my support and prayers threw my angels to urs!!As I know we both must have them seeing we are still here ,with lot's of hope for a wonderful life!!!!!!:) Have u thougth about keepin a little journal and even just makin small entries of how these days have been so u can always resort to looking back at that any time u may think about trying"1 more time" then u will quickly remember what this hell has been like!!I'm sorry you feel so awful today,and again what is it that may be giving u the seizures????so glad u got up and posted to keep us all informed about ur progress,Keep posting anything just get it out and keep fighting the fight!!Your so right H is no walk in the park to kick..sp proud of your progress..Daisy

[shrimpman]

Hey James-------I know how you feel------we are all pulling for you to get through this-----I pray that you feel better soon!!!!!-------Best regards, Jon

[pharma9]

Hey hun....not only can you do it...you are doing it.You can take ibuprofen 800mg every 6 hrs max 2400mg/24hrs for a few days for pain.That rebound pain will subside very soon and then you will be more comfortable.The ibuprofen helps a great deal.Drink lots of fluids and take your vitamins.
You are soon over the worst and keep in touch.
Hugs and kisses to you.