PLEASE HELP

[pill_Deamons]

Hey people and thanks for ant help I may recieve. I have been a norco addicte for 12+ years. I'm 28 years old and it all started from a recreational use then turned to a back problem from a street bike accident then went to another injury from shoulder I just had surgery on. I have kicked I can't even count but I always call get a refill and relapse. My main reason of relapse is because one not sleeping and second the mind tricks and I don't know why but I can't stay sober I guess it's I don't like it. I don't know really if I don't like it I just haven't been sober for 15* years. It started with weed then went straight to norco's. I have been clean for like 8-9 days but I did slip up on a binge for two days so now clean again on day 2. I went on a binge all because of my mind. I don't have bad withdrawals but I just can't sleep and norcs always on my mind those are the only things. I don't want to be one these any more and I want the demons gone. Is there any info on how to stay off them I'm done with them but I don't want to go back to them I don't drink I don't smoke I'm 100% sober. But how can I go months months and years this way to even find out if I truly like this or not because of now I hate it I have head issues and pills make them go away but will they go away in days weeks or months and be normal. I'm tired of getting pills just to fill normal I can and have took 5 norcs and didn't even get high I only took 2-4 a day just to not go threw withdrawal. But now I don't need even 1 but my mind is saying I do how to MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!!!!

[pill_Deamons]

Man this is tough going through it once again up and sooo tired and can't sleep I took a few Benadryl with no effect at all can't sleep this is crazy how I can't even get a night if sleep and it *****. It is hard to do this by yourself I have no body to lean on every one I have tried to get help does NOT understand the situation at all I hate people saying just stop and even heard it is not hard just don't take them. I want to smack them so bad but I know they just are clueless to the situation and don't understand and probably never will. I need some one to smack me so my head is straight I would love to get a very bad beating from some one if it would make this all go away and wake up from this bad dream. Unfortunately it is not that simple is it? I need help some one to talk to how can I give my email for support? A50stang is my email yahoo would be the place I don't know if that will work but I hope it does I hope some one can reach out to me and help god bless every one and especially those that have beat this.

[overopiates]

Let me say I felt the same way about thinking I dont wanna b sober(300+days ago).Hadnt been n so long(basically on something since17or18(30now).1st u need2look n2aftercare w/o support u wont get through it.Also it takes longer than10,30,90days2feel100%normal sober.By that I mean yes u will feel better but u need aftercare&time2learn how2deal w/life w/o pills as a crutch2not deal w/stress,sadness whatever.U have2train ur brain not2celebrate,cope,get energy etc from the pills.When u start using u basically stunt ur developement of maturing n2an adult.N just a few months I feel like a grown30yr old(not a kid which I never realized til a few months n2sobriety.Please feel free to pm me anytime Ill tell u anything help u on this journey2freedom.I can tell u I have bad days but many more good.Cravings do fade.u cant do this alone.I c an addictipn specialist+therapy(therapy is for other stuff.Ur here reaching out thats a huge&u will get tons of support,no judgement.we r lile a huge awesome family thats disfuntional

[LostNoMore]

Welcome. You're in the right place. I was in your shoes 3 months ago. I know how you feel right now. I felt like I was totally screwed. I felt like the pills were eventually going to kill me, put me in jail or the psych ward. I feared the thought of withdrawal, because I too had been through it and it was no fun. My addiction ended up taking me to my own personal hell. I had to be willing to do anything to stop using. I had to be beaten. Finally, I was. I wanted to be clean more than I wanted to use. That was it for me. The detox sucked, but I made it through. Now, after 75 days, I have hope again, and freedom. I don't wake up and grab the pills on my nightstand and wait for them to work every single morning. I don't worry about when I'm going to run out or if my hook-up will have more when i need them.
Being clean means facing your life, and that's not easy, when we've spent so much time running from it. But it's extremely rewarding when you know you can handle whatever the day brings...CLEAN. Stick around. Keep posting. Jump in and don't look back!

[lal757]

         Go to the bottom of the page click on thomas recipe this will help with the withdrawals and the pain.  Theres others on the forum that can help you to just hang on.