Today was not the day..

[aloneinok_04]

Today was not the day to taper.. I drank way to much last night, I'm not a drinker so I woke up this moring feeling like crap took 1 1/2. Pills today then got sick at lunch I'm sure due to the  drinking but have not taken anything since I got sick  at lunch around 12. I hate this,  how will it ever end if I can't stop.

[overopiates]

Well I hope ur still doing it.Let us know what's going  on cause we can help/give u support!!

[aloneinok_04]

Thank you sam, yea the puking I think was due to the drinking last night.  I haven't taken any pills since 12 at lunch but worried about the morning, I also take amiben at night to sleep, but I only take the loratab during the day. Not that that's any better.

[aloneinok_04]

Ok, what can I expect  with the wd I have read a lot on here and it scares me, I handle lots of money everyday at work, I have a lot of responsibility  and I'm  worried I won't be able to function, any advice I would be grateful for..

[Dane74]

There never is the "right" time!  We as addicts will always find an excuse to not taper/CT, because it's the easy way out. as my dear friend "Vicki" has told me many times...."Pull up your big girl panties"  and tackle this head on.  I am sorry if this sounds harsh, but i want you to get clean, OK???  For starters, cancel that script you have, you can't have that around, it's way to tempting.  Next, decide, taper or CT, then TAKE ACTION!!  Nobody said this is easy, i can tell you this me getting clean and im only 37 days clean, was the biggest accomplishment in my life i have ever made.  

[overopiates]

1st drinking is horrible idea especially when u wanna taper.No alcohol.Get up tomorrow and start ur taper u can do this.

[aloneinok_04]

Yes I do want to stop but this is the hardest thing , i have 10 left in my bottle but I have a script for 90 I haven't filled in the bathroom it seems something always come up' I say I will to taper when my husband comes back from afganistian or when I I can take time off,, but it never works. I have gained 45 pounds in the last few months and the weight is killing my back,, another excuse but it feels like it really hurts. Im scared to start and I don't know how.

[Dane74]

YOU CAN STOP!!!!! You have to want it! Do you want it?  If you want it, you can do this.  Good luck to you:)