Don't do it. Find another way to deal with it. That is why you have aftercare, the only reason you even considered accepting them was because of the client. Flush them and you will feel 10 feet tall. If you have to take something stronger than OTC stuff, at least get something from your Dr. , not something you have never taken and that wasnt prescribed to you. God Bless, Andrew
You have too much clean time.
I know but I am getting weak, I thought I can just blow it off but now when tey are sitting in front of me its hard. I look at them and think if I take them the pain will be gone and then think no it will just begin
Allright, you have to get rid of them. Flush them down the toilet right now. Take 800mg of ibuprofen. DO NOT take the Opana! It won't help. When he told you that they won't mess you up like oxy, he was lying to you or doesn't know what he is talking about.
You have a choice to make here. You gotta make the right one for YOU!
FLUSH THEM NOW. They will call your name until you do. Remember 1 is too many and 1000 isnt enough. You are 130 days clean and you can make it to 131. The more you look at those pills the worse your back will hurt. Your addict brain is screaming at you. Scream back at it and FLUSH
Don't take them! Taking them after all your clean time will make you feel sooo much worse. Get rid of the pills. It may sound great now but once they wear off and you're in the same spot you will feel worse bc everything you accomplished by getting off the pills will be undone.
I know all of this but I can't believe how hard this is after all this time I thoght I was WAY past this. I feel so ashamed for even thinking about taking them but the pain is f' ed up. When I went CT and dumped 35 80 mg oxys into the bay I felt empowerment, but now I don' know I am losing it.
You dont have to lose it. Come on, fight hard. You know what you have to do......walk into that bathroom and toss those pills into the toilet and flush. I know you are in pain but these pills will not solve the problem.
the pain will be with you when they wear off and then so will the guilt .. Do yourself a favor and flush..
You REALLY have to get rid of them. There is no reason to lose your clean time! Pain isn't worth it! I know it hurts. I've been there, but the pills aren't going to help....only temporarily, and then you are back in the same boat. What will that accomplish?
Sara--I am in tears here I am so torn, I know what I shoukd do but the pain is dirving this train right now and I DON"T want to take them thats why I'm here. If I let my additive brain control me they would have been down my throut 2 hours ago. But its getting hard. Man I have posted things on other peoples and given advice on good days and never realized how much hurt they felt. I was just relating now I now the desperation.
Sending you strength quitinoxys You can beat your addiction tonight.. you say you have a seminar tomorrow you do not want to mess with that and these will.. so come on flush.. your back may feel a lil better after some rest..
This is my 1st time on this website & this is the 1st post I looked at. I've been addicted to oxycodone (oxys & percs) for about 5 years now. I was looking for info on suboxone when i read your post. I just wanted to say be careful with those opanas. I know everyone is different but to me an opana is alot stronger than an oxy. the first time i tried one i done a half of a 40 (yellow & stop sign shaped) & it was stronger to me than an oxy 80. I also withdrawled harder on them. I'm not trying to tell you what to do or anything, just saying be careful. If you do decide to take it, try half first. I hope you decide to not take them at all. 130 days is something to be proud of. I wish i could be that strong.
I know I know i will be back at square 1, I hate this crying like a baby to you guys but thats all I have now. I feel so bad about even thinking about this its a real mind f.
HEY Bro....been a wile....you need to get rid of those pills now...stop reading the computer and go flush them.....I got a little over a year now and still cant even handle seeing a pill bottle with them in it....we went threw this my son had pacritic and they gave him perc 10s
I had an awful night of depression from my bipolar and came so so close to using....
do you have anything nonnarcotic you can take ibuprofine 800mg take the edge off
I deal with a messed up back to...tonight im sore from having to empty to sheds out
so the termite guy could drill and spray under our foundation so I sit here sore to
but the ibuprofine makes it tolerable pain is also a huge trigger for me to use
the first thing I think of is 1/2 dozen percs or vics....it just something I have to live with threw aftercare I have learned to get past it.....plaese flush those pills otherwise your going to be flushing your clean time down the drain non of us are that strong dude
put your faith in God...I know you believe pray for strength for tomorrows meeting
now do what you got to do so you dont hate yourself in the morning......Gnarly
Believe bro I hate myself now for even thinking about this!!!!
flush them and end the torcher....these are not an option...it is addictive behavior to take someone else's meds this is not an option for you you have come to far to blow it
now man up and go flush them b/4 you wind up eating them
Dont start hating on yourself. We all know what this feels like and we also know what you need to do. You can stop this battle going on with yourself so make the right choice here....
OMG my wife called me about 20 min ago and asked if I was alright. Did you guys all her (kidding) She is my tower of strenght and my true soulmate.She told me she couldn't sleep and just wanted leave a message and tell me she misses me. To her surprise I answer my cell, I was going to BS her and say everything is ok, but that don't work with her. So I fessed up to what I was going through. My baby said " where is that strong firefigther I fell in love with you where ok before you went on travel what happened" I explained to her and she said you and only you know what to do. I just hung up with her and I FLUSHED the F in pills. I told her that I was communicating with all of you and my love said thank all of them from keeping you occupied until you got the strenght back to go on. I want to thank all of you for helping make the right decision, because if I didn't post here I probably would have swallowed that poision. Tomorrow is a new day and I will have to deal with it all over again. I think tomorrow I might think though.
Thank God for your strength and your wife. What a relief this is....Way to go on flushing that poison....Let us know how you are doing tomorrow. sara
BROVOOO......WOOO HOOOOO....CUDOS DUDE.....your stronger then me if they where in my pocket I would have ate all 4 of them....I know my limitations....you did the right thing
God moves in mysterious ways...what was the chace your wife would be up at this hr
anyways im proud of you dude you got past a real acid test...the next one is telling then no
when they offer....but all tured out well now I can go to bed have a great night and a good meeting in the morning........Gnarly
I am heading to bed now too, We had a happy ending here tonight.
I thank ALL of you for carrying me through this most of all GOD as he looks down on all of us, I am going to hit the rack now as I have an early morning tomorrow. Again thanks SOOOO much
Have a Good day quitinoxys.. I'm happy for you and your wife. You beat your addiction tonight !! Thank the Good spirits.. good night hope your back feels a lil better in the morning... lesa