Please talk to me, give me your wisdom

[BodhiJones]

Well I am on day 2 of going cold turkey from 80-120 mil of Methadone a day, and 60 of oxy. a day. My pain management doctor started me on this 3 years ago for back, neck pain and daily migraines. I just can not live my life as an addict anymore. I went from being in pain to being addicted to drugs. I asked when we started this if I could get addicted and the doctor said, "Just let me know when you want to get off and I'll prescribe something for you." Great advice, not. I was prescribed ambien and Klonopin about ten years ago, I when cold turkey off that about five years later and that was terrible. That was horrendous.
So I'm at day two. I'm not in good shape but i'm making it. I have the creeps, the sweat, I'm in it big time. I'm not going to work for the next three days, I haven't started vomiting, but my skin is crawling. I know that the worst will be over in a few days and that everything will begin to get better. Even though I feel sick, I know that I am no longer a prisoner to these pills, and every tragic thing that comes with making sure you have enough each month. My kids think I have the stomach flu, my husband is helping me. I can not believe some of you are able to pull off working through this. I can do this, I am doing this to save my own life, to prolong my life, to live a better life. We deserve better than this. I will sign on later to give an update if I can. Reading everyone's stories here has given me so much strength. Thank you all for letting me know I am not alone. Bodhi

[gnarly_1]

have you started the vitamins yet they will help in 2 or 3 days but they made a big difference for me dont skip this and yes jumping from 120 your going to be dope sick for 2weeks and then the post withdrawal energy crash last about 90 days this stuff is miserable to kick you do get better slowly threw the 90 days but it is painfully slow let me know how you do on the vitamins
keep posting for support we all want to see you make it threw this
still think you should taper off its a lot safer and a whole lot less painful
may God be with you........Gnarly  

[BodhiJones]

have not taken anything  since yesterdays nightmare with the husband and doctor. Between 1 and 10 i'm feeling like a good 3. was up all night peeing drank a gallon of water. Its so hard. We told my sons last night what I was doing getting off the meds. Husband said that they needed to understand what was happening, and to know that I wouldn't forget words anymore. I felt good about it at the time and now am feeling ashamed for letting them now. hey are 13, my husband is 3 years sober for alcohol, so they totally understand sobriety, they also know that I am the one that supports the family in every way, so they are worried that I will not work, but I always work. Husband is an agoraphobic so its up to me to keep the girls in college and the boys in skateboards and iphones. I am suppose to go to work on Friday, its Wednesday, I have to be okay. I am not feeling hardly any shakes and jumps but is that because of the 10 mil of methadone yesterday morning or because I am on day 4, or was on day four. One daughter isn't speaking to me because she is disgusted with me, the other is calling every hour to check on me. Will I be sick for months????

[BodhiJones]

Please talk to me.

[BodhiJones]

Hey, really bad night and morning. My husband tricked me, my doctor told him to get 10 mil of methadone in me because I was not able to be still and was moaning and crying. I haven't eaten but am drinking lots of water and juice. Okay I think i'm over the oxy wd, but in to the methadone withdrawl. How long to the cramps and leg cramps last and why are people saying that it takes three weeks to feel good? I have no desire to take these drugs, this addiction is physical not mental. Will I be sick in bed for three weeks or just not feeling great? I just need to know when the dt's will stop. Please someone talk to me.

[Innerstrength67]

How are you Bodhi? BTW~ that's our cats name...love it!
Are you staying hydrated? Water just wont cut it. You need electrolytes. Try gatorade, juice. Also have you been able to eat? As littlebit says, eat crackers, toast...you need food.
Hang in there. Keep posting.

[jlannspr]

This is temporary. Your health is permanent. Concentrate on now, not what might be. Can u try soup, crackers, or toast? Stay strong. Think of the $ and time you will have.