5th day of detox!!

[redjohnson5]

I'm going mad.. With wanting these anxiety attacks or really just the yearning to go away. I'm not sleeping very good. I'm taking what I'm supposed to be. Went cold turkey this time. Back on Jan. 10th 2013 i started tapering &  i couldn't put the last one down. So, I definitely had to go this way this time. I'm

[redjohnson5]

Sorry, didn't finish. I'm 36 years old &  have a wonderful husband that is helpful & 2 kids I still need to take care of. I also want to mention that I lost my 19yr old son on July 4th of 2012. Just wanted you guys to know where I was coming from. Thanks for listening.
Robin

[SmilingBright]

Congrats on your 5th day!!  The anixety will come an go. But u can get through this.  Try and keep yourself busy as I'm sure u must be w kiddos and a hubby.
I'm so sorry about losing your son;( praying God carries you in the Palm of His hands always.  I can't even imagine what you have gone through.

My prayers are with you.  You have found an amazing group of people here w awesome support. You can do this!!!
Christina

[VICourageous]

Hi..I am so sorry you lost your son...I know it is very painful..You just give it to your God..I feel for you.....So sorry...Yes the anxiety is just a part of the detox..Of course I do not know your medical histroy and I am not a DR..Most of us that detox here have gone into this stage..Just try to keep your self re-directed..Try some things that will calm u down..Like magnz, cal, ds..Do you have some calm Teas..You can buy something from the store called CALM..I have had it for ever..It just knocks me down..I had all the things in it that I just said...It comes in a powder..Maybe take a walk and then a bath..OK Just hang it will ease up...
vickie

[redjohnson5]

I guess I really didn't ask a question, but know that I am really needing support. I'm still in search of those "devil pills " around my house, knowing none are here. I try to stay busy &  i take lots of hot showers. Boy, do those help me get up and around. I guess maybe I should tell you guys what I was on.... I took 10mg loratab. 20 a day.

[VICourageous]

WOW Welcome home..Most of us used to get going..The Buzz..I did what you did many, many years before it went up to the Methedone, plus 2 other meds..I was snorting them later..So I am proud you to want out now...You must get rid of them now...There are alot of changes to be made if you take the Road to Recovery..OK
I am going to leave this one up to the opiate people..I will be back for some support OK..I have seen alot of Blessing on here..I came clean in Sept but did not get on until Dec..It works here too..Besides our God and some aftercare..(Meetings)...
God Bless you...

[redjohnson5]

Thank you so much Christina &  Vicki! I will definitely ck out that Calm powder.
I went to an AA meeting last night for the first time & i felt so out of place. Is that normal?

[VICourageous]

Hi again Just keep going it will get better OR find one that makes you feel at home..I go to AA/NA.. I just love my AA by my house..I have not had a drink in over 8yrs..But I have the highest respect for them..You know they do not need a scrip or go looking to buy pills its all over and easy to get...
Hang in it is slow right now..They come in and out..OK

[redjohnson5]

On my way to another meeting.. Very apprehensive...

[Nursey7]

Great job that you are going to meetings already!  I am back at day 5 also from CT opiates and I can't even get off the couch today. So keep up the good work!  The anxiety is so normal and combined with lack of sleep makes it very difficult. I, too keep thinking maybe I have a pill in this purse, my car, my bathroom, etc. It's horrible to crave those little suckers that you know are destroying you. It doesn't make you feel the best about yourself, does it?  We have to remember it is a disease like any other and give ourselves a break!  I can't even begin to tell you how sorry for the loss of your son. I am a mom of 3 and that is a horrible fear of mine. I hope you sought out some grief counseling for this. You will be in my prayers!  Please make sure you don't have pills and don't have refills as that has been my downfall.

Marianne

[gnarly_1]

HI congrats on 5 days clean....sleeping is usualy the last thing to come back give it tim you may go to the health store and pick up some lemon balm it helps with the anxzity and sleep it will be the best 15 bucks you ever spent keep posting we all want to see you make it ........
good luck and God bless..............Gnarly

[redjohnson5]

Thank you so much Vicki on recommending Calm. It worked & i actually slept. I also enjoyed my meeting last night. Thanks to everyone who has been praying for me..

[17mthssober275]

Glad to hear you are going to AA meetings, that's great. You will find some that you will feel totally comfortable at. I love them, some are so great, I come out feeling so relaxed. Some of the positive messages you hear and the hope it gives you for your future is so great. Glad the tea helped you sleep, it's hard to not get enough rest. Reading always helps me fall asleep. Been exercising lately too, makes me feel better also. Sorry for your loss, can't imagine how you feel, so sorry. Try to stay as happy as you can with positive people around you. Keep yourself busy with things you love to do. Keep up the good work. Congratulations on your clean time.