loosin day by day

[sach61]

hello frnds,
sry frnds for not bein in regular contact wit u all,bcoz of sm personel issues..
as u knw i am hardcore addict of codiene frm past 15mnths,but nw i really
want to quit ,but nthins goin d way i planned,but insted of quitin my intake has
incrsd frm 7,8 to 10,12...iam not able to remember anythng,am jst not able to
understand wots all happening around me..my weight has been reduced from
88kg  to  61kg in past 2 mnths,my hole body shivers lyk hell all d time and
evn am  facin frm excessive sweating evn wen im in a AC room.i cnt sleep d whole night
not evn an hour .now a days am soo scarred ki i cnt evn ride my bike.i think am really loosin.
it.but still cnt do anythng..wenever i decide to quit,i jst go on very very wild as frm d day i got
addicted to codiene i use to have codiene syp  daily in d morning @ 9 a.m..so wen i try to
get rid of this codeine  ,i wl be normal til 9 a.m, but after few mins i jst go on mad,my head
starts bangin lyk helll,i go on vry vry wild on evry1 and evrythng..i really dnt understand wot am doin
and y am doin such.at tat time i dnt hv any control on my mind and my body..it jst feels as if am
goona die fr sure if i dint hv syp..I AM LOOSIN IT,REALLY LOOOSIN IT.i lost all d hope and enthusiasm
in life..am jst not interestd in anythng not evn in my job wich i had to quit..infact of knowin tat codiene syp
is killin me but still i cnt quit..infact of knowin all the harmful effects of such drugs,y  do d pharmaseutical
councils wont bann such drugs.if 2 pupils cm out of this addiction ,there are 20 peoples who become the
victims of this syp but still no ones ther to  cm fwd and ban such killin drugs..its really vry horrible suffring
and how horrible an codiene addict suffers tat cnt b xpressed by words ,nly the person whose suffrin
and who has suffered in past can understand ..am loosin my mental balance day by day and i hv almost reached
in d state of depression..lifesss really vry beautiful,no one on this earth wishes fr death.i too dnt wanna die bcoz of this addiction,but am not understandin wot to do and no ones thr to help to get rid of this..so frnds plz help me
,nly u r d people who can get me out of this..i always wonder abt lif,and still in search of the real meanin of life,
wots d hell lifes about.....????????????????????????????????

[kshikha]

Dear Friend i am really feeling sad for u, i was also addicted to some medicines but through Yoga and meditation i was able to come out of it. I suggest never leave yourself alone try to be with friends, parents or loved ones. If possible change the old house, and keep yourself busy in work and if u feel headache then intake lot of water or may be some juice as suggested. And i request you to go to some doc who can tell u exactly what you should do. As u said you life is beautiful so i wish you live a happy life and for that you have to help yourself.

Good luck , and please update your Progress (if not progress then also)
I hope this advice will work for u.

[laurel453]

Hi, sach, welcome to the forum !!

you are right we can lose everything and even life so the best decision you could take is stop taking them. Tappering is not easy at all for all addicts and we usually need someone to hold and give us every dose...as you have discovered we even increased our intake while trying to taper by ourselves so my advice would be to just stop.

There will be a week ( more or less) of bad flu symptons and it can be done, sacha... trust yourself and read the THomas recipe and the amino acid protocol at the health pages and maybe you can find some stuff there to help you with some of the symptons...Drink a lot of fluids ( water, green tea, apple juice, tonic water, gatorades..), take long hot baths ( this is the best one :) eat proteins rich food and bananas ( because they are rich in potassium ) and if you could find some remedy to alleviate the restless legs syndrom, it would be good ( ask your pharmacist )..some immodium ( diarrhea) ..

good luck, sacha and stay here and post any questions you can have ! :)