If you search through the forum you will see others in the same boat as you....trying to get clean. If you cant get clean at home...a detox facility is ideal. Many marriages are ruined through addiction. Get clean and maybe you and your ex can reconcile. (If that's what you want) You have to take action though...work for your recovery.
I dont go to NA myself but it seems to help an awful lot of people so maybe give that a try first. If not, there are many other programs that can help you.
Just do an internet search for:
Celebrate Recovery
S.M.A.R.T. recovery
Rational Recovery
Secular Organizations for Sobriety
Recovery International
LifeRing Secular Recovery
These all meet like the traditional NA/AA meetings but have different approaches and philosophies. Just whatever you do....find a program that fits your needs.
Good luck and God bless
Hi,I'm on oxycodone #20s been on them for 3 years now...started out with 10/325 and now up to 20 mg with fentanyl 50 MCG for pain...I know were you r at I run out also and have to hunt some down cause I cant go without them they are my air u know what I'm talking about...I have to have them for pain but I do take more then I should cause I got a high tolerance cause I've been on them so long...I would love to wake up and feel good again without taken a pill...when I do decided to stop I will have to go to rehab I couldn't do it a lone!!! I go to a pain clinic thinking about asking them about suboxone I've been reading about it ...do you get your though a clinic? If so ask about it ...it might work for you...hope I helped and I'm in the same boat with you ...
Listen I am opiate addict too , and you can break free from all this . I have been there. You may need to go to a medical detox to get off this stuff. Oxycodone is and Opiate which goes directly to the pleasure center of the brain , taking away pain and giving you a euphoric feeling. When you try to stop you become very depressed because you brain stopped producing its own endorpines. Withdrawal is miserable, often compared to “the super flu” but it is not life threatening. It lasts from three to 10 days. I recommend you have someone stay with you while you go through withdrawal or go to detox . Find an NA meeting in your area .There are also online NA groups. They helped me alot. To visit one online type in NA-chat.com or .org ....I wish you the best . You are not alone