Ready to give up!!

[sweetmomma_7]

I really need to vent.

I have been clean for almost 6wks now and I feel like ****. I was doing fine for a while and I have no idea if it's a cold that is making me have rls and an upset stomach or what. I just can't get rid of this feeling. Then my husband tells me that if it is withdrawls than I totally have it coming to me. I just want to scream instead of him being happy for me he just tells me that I should of quit a long time ago.

I'm off to take ANOTHER bath!

Jess

[sweetmomma_7]

Thank you all again.

I am doing a little better today so hopefully each day will get better.

That letter was really awesome and I have already pulled out some old pictures of myself. Of course alot of thoughts are going through my mind such as "how could let this happen"?. But I did and you all are right, I need to get myself back to where I was.

Thank you all again,

Jess

[dove3053]

Try to ignore remarks like that. I know they hurt.  6 weeks is good and maybe your just coming down with the flu. People that haven't had this problem don't understand or sympathize. Someone posted that yesterday and it's so true. Sometimes we have to be our own bestfriends.

Dove

[Friend999]

A very terrific woman once wrote the following in a letter:

"I finally decided that I have been through enough. I was tired of my kids seeing mommy cry all the time, and was tired of acting a way I never acted before. I pulled out an old photo album of me  (before my drug use) and saw how happy I really was without drugs. That was when I decided I wanted to be like that again."

While your road to being happy again without drugs has many pitfalls, you ARE on that road, my dear friend. Please keep pressing on, and your dream will come true!! Take out that picture again.

Many people on this forum are happy for you, and are so proud of your progress, as you should be.  Be strong for yourself, your kids, and, yes, even for your husband.

Your friend,

Friend999

[bubbaganoosh]

I know how hard it is when your edgy to ignore others comments perhaps we all need to make up a coping skills thread and add to it lol, i tried relaxation few days now and its helping perhaps give that ago too N

[worried878]

I was gonna say something else bout the hubby thing, but erased and said something nicer!  LOL

[sweetmomma_7]

You all are so awesome!!!!!!!

Lisa~ I was ready to smack my husband,lol. Of course as you have said before baths are really great.

mikeinthesouth~ you are totally right, I don't want the rls worse than I already do have them. And thank you, I am trying to stay strong.

sickcookie~I am glad to know that I am not the only one going through this. And yes, this forum is the best support I could ever ask for.

worried878~My husband needs a little more than just a talking too,lol. I have been stressed and everyone around me has been sick. Hopefully it will pass soon.

I wanted to make sure I wrote a little something to each of you because you all are the best!!

The bath did help alot and mentally I do feel a little better.

Here is a sad story for you guys....

A friend of mine at school had gotten sick yesterday ( during school). We have talked alot about our drug problems and she said she was clean. I noticed on Thursday that she didn't look ok so I started talking to her and she just starts crying. I finally dragged it out of her and she said she took some drugs Tuesday ( her roommates are a really bad influence on her). Well on Thursday my teacher starts packing up all my friends stuff so I asked what was going on. The teacher told me that she hasen't eaten in a few days and was sick ( although I knew better). I go outside where she is at and she was shaking really bad and her eyes were rolling to the back of her head. Everyone there kept trying to give her food and her inhailer (sp?) while we were waiting for her ride so I finally grabbed my teacher and pulled her a side and told her what was going on ( she was very understanding). She gets taken to the hospital and a few hours later I got a phone call from her saying that she was better. So I asked her what her drug test showed up and she tells me she had coke, heroin, X,and perc all in her system and that she was crashing from it hard. Here is the sad thing, she just turned 18 not even a month ago. So I have been trying to help her with all of this and take care of myself.

I guess I could have it alot worse.

Thank you all again,

Jess

[worried878]

Same thing over this way...kept getting sick and the past couple of days i have noticed a bit of shakiness in my hands...and anxiety...it has been almost 3 months...cycles i think...i will just wait this one out as i think stress triggers paws...for me anyway...guess we just hold on tight...i dont believe i deserve going thru wds over and over...your hubby needs a talking too!  LOL

[sadinmichigan]

hey jess...just worrying about you! Like sickcookie said..don't let him get to you..i know it would be nice for him to be supportive. Mine isn't either..I hear stuffing your self with bananas helps the rls..i forget who posted that..And vent away!!! we are here for you.

[sickcookie]

You are doing great at six weeks do not let him get to you.My husband is no support either so I do it just for myself and get my support here,so do not let him get to ya just keep being strong and that will show him.I do think it is symptoms of withdrawl I have 96 days clean and those withdrawl feeling kept popping up until 60 or so.So you are doing great do not less this upset you because stress really makes you feel worse.So keep posting

[Mikeinthesouth]

o yes congrats on that six weeks it is a major accomplishment and a gift to have that much time although I know it is a lot of work it is still a blessing.

[Mikeinthesouth]

hang in there jess and unless you want ten times the rls u r having and the rest of the lovely symptoms we all know elll than I would not use after that long as that amount of time to me seems like a hundred years from where I am and I would love to be there. Hang in there.. Mike

[sadinmichigan]

Oh please don't give up!..I had the same thing happen to me after i felt really good for awhile and then felt like I was in w/ds again..I believe now what i am experiencing is PAWS.I was on methadone though befor the pills..i don't know if thats why but i defianately have the symptoms..I'm really sorry your husband said that..it sounds like he doesn't understand addiction to well. i would have probably smacked him silly..lol take your hot bath and others may be able to help you with the rls..That is the ONLY thing i haven't had this time and i thank God for that..i know it is horrible..You are in my prayers and congrats to you for staying strong...6 weeks??!!! Don't look back and PLEASE don't give up!! xo  Lisa