I would be more scared of where the road of addiction heads, than of withdrawals. The hardest and first thing is to know and admit you have a problem. After that, it becomes easier to decide to quit. You say that you are not planning to quit. Yet you are taking more and more. where does that leave you? Eventually, you will be taking tons more, just to get the same relief or effect. As you use opiates, your body will 'produce' more pain so it gets more opiates. It becomes a vicious cycle. Many of us here all started where you are now, legitimate pain issues. As one who has been there, I recommend that you talk this over with your Dr. Be honest about your use to them.
When you are ready to quit. We will be here to help you succeed.
I just read your comment on my first post and it brought me to tears. I'm crying as I type this to you. I am addicted and I'm terrified about stopping. I am so scared of withdrawals - I am not going off of the medication anytime soon and I can say that I have stopped taking more than the recommended amount since I first posted on the 12th, but I'm happy to have read your comment. Happy and also it sort of sealed the deal, so to speak, to hear it from a total stranger. I have neck and shoulder pain that is really and truly REAL, but the addiction to my painkillers is real, too. Thanks for your words. I've been scared to come back and check out if anyone wrote anything back. Glad we joined near the same time - are you off of medications or still on them? (Still crying, I send you a hug back.) angie bee
{QUOTE"""I am terrified of the time when I have to quit taking my prescribed drugs....However, I do display signs that alarm me - like stashing "extras" away in case I run out early, worrying about refills (or at least w/in a day of being due)....counting pills, dreaming up (never doing) ways to get a big supply so I don't have to "worry". ENDQUOTE}
Sounds like you're addicted and this is the place for you - welcome! I was doing all of the same behavior, not with pills but with Stadol NS. I would get the prescription filled and immediately start worrying about when I could get the next prescription filled, how I could get extra and stash it away, looking on the internet to try and find information about how to get it without a prescription, dr. shopping and using multiple pharmacies in the hopes that none of the others would find out.
Again, welcome to the group! I just actually joined this board but have been lurking for a few weeks. From what I can tell, this is a very supportive group of people. Hugs to you and best of luck!
Anyone wanting help and knowledge is always welcome here so WELCOME.You're right to be a bit concerned about the 'stashing of the pills',and the worry about running out,or wishing you had a huge supply.Those things fall under the category of 'addict behavior'.I'm not to clear about the line between dependency and addiction.I'm an addict and I can only speak about what I know from personal experience.Lots of wonderful people here.I wish you all the best..........Peace............Kim
this is an addiction forum, you sound addicted. So welcome!