Sick and Tired

[emotionallybankrupt]

I am new to this forum so far I love it. I go to pain management and have so many things wrong with me physically that it would take a while to list so I am in lots pain. The doctor put me on 5 Narco and 3 Opana ER 30 mg. a dayIhave been on them 2 years now. In Feb. my son was robbed and murdered which brought my stress level up which in turn increased the amount of pain I have. Sometimes when I am really sad I will take 2 opana instead. Anyway I am just sick of taking pills so after finding this website I have decided to taper off and stop pain pills all together I am going to try acupuncture and explore other options these pills can not be good for my liver. I know my son would want me to let my light shine be happy and help others. I need all the support I can get you all are such caring people. So I guess for the next week I will stay with 1 opana and 4 narcos for one week then go down 1 more narco the next week then maybe three quarters opana too, should I take it that fast or what do you kind people think please help me I am determined not sure how to use this website yet but I will figure it out eventually. Thanks to everyone.

[NeverAgain127]

Hi honey:

Your post brought tears to my eyes as well.  I stopped right then and there and said a prayer for you.

You're a very strong soul, and I admire you so much for what you've been through.  You are 100% right; your life is far from over, and you have things you need to do.   Heck, you might save a life right here on this forum, just by sharing your experience, strength and hope!

I'm pulling for you honey.   If tapering feels like the right thing, then you go ahead and DO that.  For me, I just wanted to get the darned thing over with, so I just jumped off before my body had a chance to adjust to lowered doses.   Not gonna lie to you; it was brutal for the first 4 days, but then it was just plain old miserable for the next six...and on day 10 I turned a big corner, and could see the light.  

It's not like in the movies, where you're clawing at the walls and freaking out. It's just a lot of unpleasant symptoms all together.   Truly, if I were to be honest, the entire thing, while different, was not any worse than some really terrible flu-bugs I've caught.  (I remember having something like the Hong Kong flu in high school and I was incredibly sick for 3 weeks.  Withdrawals weren't as bad as that, to be honest.)

Keep your faith---I too, believe in prayer.   This is a good place, and I have absolutely NO doubt you will reach your goal.  

Hugs,
-Robin

[clean_in_ks]

Your last post touched me deeply.  You're a SURVIVOR girl!!!  YEAH YOU!
The song your son dedicated to you brought tears to my eyes as you shared your memory.  I had a very young co-worker/friend that was killed instantly when a jet ski hit her in the back of the head and her 7 yr old saw it happen to his Mama.  Her hubby played that song at her service.  Tears flow every time I hear it.

You have His strength in you and you will be the best, grace filled witness in that courtroom come August!!!  I promise to pray for you....please keep posting with any questions or symptoms.  But most of all, to let us know how you are doing because we care~  Much love, Connie

[Krissy_123]

I remember when I was googling everything I could to help me through detox,I came across withdrawl ease. It sounds like it could be pretty good because it used with a taper plan. You sound like you have a great plan in effect! You also have god in your life,that's the biggest help you're going to have right there. He never gives us a challenge we can't get through. Keep posting and let us know how you're doing! xoxo Krissy

[emotionallybankrupt]

Thanks  to all of you for being of service to your fellow man. Clean that is what I needed to know now what everyone has been saying about tapering makes sense. I guess it always did put it was like a puzzle I just couldn't quite figure out when how many how long then I read your comment "the slower the better that  we have to give our body a chance to adjust to level we just dropped to in order to move on."  I can do this only I don't have to do it alone I've got God and you guys. I also remembered back in 2011 I went through chemo and it didn't kill me it felt like it was going to everyday lost half my hair weighed 98 lbs. nothing taste good. The only way I made it through that was the thought that my work here is not done my children and grandchildren needed me I kept my eye on the prize for a whole year. I am cancer free now. My doctor at that time only subscribed me 30 narco and 20 Valium 10 mg. a month I never ran out of medication. I have the discipline if I can get through that I can do this of course it is a different kind of sick symptom wise. Nonetheless I felt like I was on the brink of death each and everyday if it had not been for my finding a support group of people like you I would not have made it through it. There were so many different symptoms over that year and each one would scare me and make me think I should throw in the towel but I would go to that website and always come back with an answer about that symptom it would always turn out that other people were having the same symptoms so that would keep me going a while until I needed them again I always found answers. Also my son used to always tell me how much he loved it when I shone times that I would get ready for my day wake early write out prayers sit in silence in the quiet before the traffic got to going along with all the other noise. He was proud of me. One time he called a radio station and dedicated the song by Bette Midler "the wind beneath my wings" to me it made me fill so good to think I could be his hero. Well I have got to become his hero again. Please pray for me there is power in prayer I need all I can get. I know I will have to find alternative options for pain and maybe learn to handle it mentally ill just have to do the foot work and find a way. You guys have done this I can too. When I say I it is we I really mean because I know I can't do it alone not without God this website and my doctor if need be. Before I forget I am pretty much able to stick to what I am prescribed from time to time I will take two opana instead of one especially if I hear something about my sons murder trial coming up in August i want to be able to focus and be clear minded when I get to tell this man and woman what type personality and human being they took from  our society I want to be able to describe him with the grace and eloquence I believe he deserved. Thanks again everyone and please pray for me to have the strength, courage and all the abilities needed to fight this demon.  God bless you all. Slow and easy three days before my final drop I will start something similar to the Thomas recipe it is called withdraw ease and another bootle forgot the name. One for day one for night the ingredients are the same as the Thomas recipe maybe not same dosages but same. Take Los of hot showers and baths hyland  restless leg syndrome stay well hydrated good multivitamin.

[emotionallybankrupt]

Thanks  to all of you for being of service to your fellow man. Clean that is what I needed to know now what everyone has been saying about tapering makes sense. I guess it always did put it was like a puzzle I just couldn't quite figure out when how many how long then I read your comment "the slower the better that  we have to give our body a chance to adjust to level we just dropped to in order to move on."  I can do this only I don't have to do it alone I've got God and you guys. I also remembered back in 2011 I went through chemo and it didn't kill me it felt like it was going to everyday lost half my hair weighed 98 lbs. nothing taste good. The only way I made it through that was the thought that my work here is not done my children and grandchildren needed me I kept my eye on the prize for a whole year. I am cancer free now. My doctor at that time only subscribed me 30 narco and 20 Valium 10 mg. a month I never ran out of medication. I have the discipline if I can get through that I can do this of course it is a different kind of sick symptom wise. Nonetheless I felt like I was on the brink of death each and everyday if it had not been for my finding a support group of people like you I would not have made it through it. There were so many different symptoms over that year and each one would scare me and make me think I should throw in the towel but I would go to that website and always come back with an answer about that symptom it would always turn out that other people were having the same symptoms so that would keep me going a while until I needed them again I always found answers. Also my son used to always tell me how much he loved it when I shone times that I would get ready for my day wake early write out prayers sit in silence in the quiet before the traffic got to going along with all the other noise. He was proud of me. One time he called a radio station and dedicated the song by Bette Midler "the wind beneath my wings" to me it made me fill so good to think I could be his hero. Well I have got to become his hero again. Please pray for me there is power in prayer I need all I can get. I know I will have to find alternative options for pain and maybe learn to handle it mentally ill just have to do the foot work and find a way. You guys have done this I can too. When I say I it is we I really mean because I know I can't do it alone not without God this website and my doctor if need be. Before I forget I am pretty much able to stick to what I am prescribed from time to time I will take two opana instead of one especially if I hear something about my sons murder trial coming up in August i want to be able to focus and be clear minded when I get to tell this man and woman what type personality and human being they took from  our society I want to be able to describe him with the grace and eloquence I believe he deserved. Thanks again everyone and please pray for me to have the strength, courage and all the abilities needed to fight this demon.  God bless you all. Slow and easy three days before my final drop I will start something similar to the Thomas recipe it is called withdraw ease and another bootle forgot the name. One for day one for night the ingredients are the same as the Thomas recipe maybe not same dosages but same. Take Los of hot showers and baths hyland  restless leg syndrome stay well hydrated good multivitamin.

[Jude17]

If your doc is out of town, they would still have someone available for you to see. Call the office and make an appointment. It will probably be easier with a different doctor anyway. They will have a fresh perspective. Just be honest, they've heard it all and worse. If you're ready to taper down, the doctor will probably support your decision. They don't want you taking more meds than you need. They can also provide other alternatives (acupuncture, physical therapy, other meds, etc.). I'm new to this forum and haven't been on your meds, but from what I've read the slowest tapers are the best for your body.