48 hour of oxy and im dying!!1

[zagmar3631]

hello,

this is my first post, although ive been a lurker. i just made 48 hours ct off a 150mg-200mg a day oxy habit. i feel like im dying...i have zero energy, runny nose, using the bathroom a ton, and cant sit still but i dont want to move and sleep is...well nonexistent. to be honest...this was not by choice. i was supposed to get my usual order (off the street) but it fell thru for the first time ever, so now i view this as a blessing in disguise. i have hydros 10mg but i might as well be taking a placebo because they are not doing a thing for me. the hydros are prescribed but stopped working a while back and my doctor refuses to give me anything stronger so i turned to an outside source...man am i ever sorry i did this. i remember back in the day when a 5mg of hydro made me fly...now just horrible withdrawals from this evil pill we call oxy. how can i combat the way i feel? how long does this last? any advice is much appreciated.

[zagmar3631]

thanks for the kind words...thats funny you think im lucky because lucky would be the last word to describe me at the moment...ive never felt anything like this in my life. it amazes me that such a small pill can have such a HUGE impact in our lives. i hate myself for getting addicted, i hate myself for spending over 10k in the past months, i hate myself for being such a loser!!! so many people can get thru life without becoming addicted...why was i unable?? im am keeping you in my thoughts momma...so please keep in touch. also, a big thanks to refusingbondage for the peptalk. i wish i were dead!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[refusingbondage]

I wish you both nothing but strength and success.  As hard as this is right now, please know it will get better.  You may feel like dying but if you stick it out you will get through it and feel better.  Struggling is right -by day 5 you should have a lot of improvement over the severe physical stuff and then a little better every day after that.  Its hard to image anything worse right now so stay focused on the positive and the only positive right now is knowing that at some point it will get better and each day will get you closer to that point.  Count the minutes if you have to and just get to tomorrow.. easier said than done I know - but it can be done.  Ive been where you are more times than I can count and currently 42 days off something worse (long term sub) and its torture but 42 days later here I am... and many before me... be strong even when you think you cant and arent.. Best of luck to you both!

[strugglingmomma]

I am going through the same thing but my withdrawal is actually from hydros.  Your lucky your on day 2 I am only on day 1.  I am miserable.  I can't quit crying and I cry more when I my mind starts telling me I did this to myself.  It makes me feel so stupid.  I hope you get to feeling better.  The withdrawals should be gone in 5-7 days.  Then it's just keeping the mindset of staying clean.  Keep me posted on how you do.