oh no! I went thru detox at a hospital 13 years ago. I was on 26 pills a day, all prescribed. I was getting anxiety after 6 yrs and felt in the need for a hospital. That is when they put me on methadone for a week, then sent me home, then I went thru withdrawals,(21days) never knowing I would, thought I was recoverd, this never happened to me before, boy was I stupid. Then went back on after 3 yrs due to dental pain,( altho I have severe back and neck pain, its the dental pain that drove me to madness and took a vicodin and voila back on for 6 more yrs) six yrs later, I went cold turkey due to anxiety lNovember 2011, the three months later, due to another agonizing dental pain, went back on, now its 10 months later, anxiety set in again, so here I am weaning. No more cold turkey for me. Had a tooth pulled 4 weeks ago and Im in pain again, going to the oral surgeon on Thursday, but Im weaing at the same time. This is such madness. I have no idea why dental pain keeps getting in the way of my recoveries.
That is exactly how I felt. Like I was just existing. Everyone else was living but I was just existing. I envied people that could be up and dressed during the day. It's amazing how easy it is to do those little things when you are clean but so hard to do when you are using.
I wish you all the best.
You should write when you are bored during your detox. You seem to have a flair for it and also a great sense of humour.
Wow! They put you on methadone to detox from 45mgs of Oxy? And threw you out after a week? That's a little like killing a fly with a sledgehammer imo. No wonder you feel that way. Trusting yourself is probably the best idea then Sandy.
Yeah I'm scared of the wds too. Part of me want's to refill that script on Friday and try to taper further. But I feel like I'm just putting off the inevitable. We all have different experiences going thru this. And if that is the most comfortable way for you....that's just what you should do.
Most likely it would be my best option if I felt I could wait that long. But I don't. My desperation and depression is growing daily. I found my old account and was reading some of my posts after 11 days....3 weeks.....a month. I sounded so excited to be feeling like I was living again. And right now I feel like I'm merely existing. I hope the best for you in your journey. Peace
I wish you would post them. I have used the carnation instant breakfast that you suggested and love it. It is cheaper than the boosts and tastes so much better. Full of all sorts of vitamins and supplements. Mmmmm I want one now.
Everyone is so kind and helpful, I thanks you all alot in every way. Just knowing Im not alone and chatting here and there helps me. Wish we could all do it together, guess thats what rehab's are for, but when I went to a hospital the first time, they put me on meth for a week and sent me home. 24 hours later I went into withdrawals at home for 21 days! they told me I was crazy, and that shouldnt be. I went to a private dr, ( my daughter had to drive me, I felt awful) and the private dr told me, " yup, your in withdrawals, so I dont trust anyone but myself now to get off. thanks everyone, will check in tomorrow!!!
Thanks Missy I hope you're right.
And to clean_in_ks - Feel free to jack my thread if it will help someone else out. I don't mind a bit.
Peace