messed up again

[dbgc]

sorry everybody i messed up and took some roxys. im so sick of being cleen 3-4 days then relapsing why do i do this to myself. I know i can do this and have to, it has ruined everything in my life. I have lost my wife and daughter to this crappy addiction. I just feel so alone and nobody thre to help me. I get down on my knees and pray that with the lords help this will be the time i make it. It has to be. i know that if i fix myself and my wife sees a true change that maybe thing will still workout, I know she loves me but not the lying addict. i know that i just have to focus on myself right now and that me getting clean is the most important but it is so hard to do alone. I will make it this time and i know what i have to go through to do this, ive done it quite a few times and you would think i would have learned my lesson. last time i made it three in a half weeks why did i ever start again when i was almost there. I am going to n.a. meetings with my sister and know i need its help to beat this addiction. I know this is my time and if i want my life to get better and have any chance to save my mariage this is the time to do it, i am such a better person than this. thanks for all your support guys i need it and i hope in some ways i can help you. we all can overcome this and be the people we want to be it just takes will power. so i guess i will start over and this can be my new day number one.

[122 Tactical Fighter Group]

hey now - you just got here this month - but being here means that you have people that will support you. People that have been there and done that. Giz is so right that it takes a multi faceted approach to get done successfully ----  one thing you gotta do is keep on quiting. I dont know concrete numbers, but most on this forum are familiar with your story. Most of us tried several times to get this done. And then for whatever reason we found this forum for questions and mutual support.....  You can do this. Stay strong. Make a plan and write it down. Then stick to it.....best of luck to you ---   eagle

[gizzy32]

Hi there. Aftercare is VITAL to staying clean. It's great your attending N/A now and on here for support. You are right, it takes will power, but it also takes work to beat this deadly disease. Just like you, i continued to relapse over and over and over till i got some help. Hitting bottom can change a person and as you say, your marriage is on the line now, that is incentive. YOU CAN DO THIS. keep posting and don't be afraid to ask for help. best of luck to ya

[me1972]

I'm Sorry !
Have u thought about using Suboxone?   I could'nt do it cold turkey.... So FOR ME it's the answer.( I JUST started on it on Tuesday) And while on it There seems to be a FEAR FACTOR about ever popping a hydro or an oxy...... Plus the money that is going into this treatment--- I dont want it to be a huge waste!    Message me if you need to chat.......