Thankyou for your help

[Katya456]

To: anyone
I just need to type myself out of this so I dony go mad. I dont know if I can make it on my own and may need to go to a doctor to get help. The last time I did that he put me on done and I kicked that but it was hell and had to take oxys to get the edge off the withdrawals of done. All I am doing is going around and replacing one drug for another and I dread the time of my next dose cos I have to have it. I am cutting severely down as I want to be clean in two to three weeks.

I opened adark door when I started on these. My dark personality, the one I didnt know I had came out and now I am trying to close the door and its not going down without a fight. oh dread, somebody talk to me, I feel so alone and scared

[kim715]

Oh sweetie,I'm so sorry for your situation.I know how much it hurts when our loved ones aren't there with the support we need.We're here for you though.You're not alone.Bandnmom is so right.Although we all know it's really hard for you right now,it does get better and you WILL look back  and be so proud of yourself.The rewards outweigh the struggles so much.Just keep talking,we're all right here.

[bandnmom]

oh hun..we are all here for you. we have all been right were you are right now! just stay strong and know that it does get better. talk away..all day..im laying on the couch healing from surgery and im not movin..lol..so im here for you. you have to realize that there is no fast fix. it took us so long to do this to ourselves so we cant be fixed over night. day by day or like i say  sometimes minute by minute. when its all said and done you will look back and be so proud of yourself. it is hard, which i know u know, but with support and staying strong you can and will do it!

[joann1975]

does he want to get clean like you? i know it's hard...i am so sorry for you... i really am.

[Katya456]

I have a boyfriend who has worse addiction than mine, if that is possible. He has a permanent line in his veins and is on pickups from the chemist but he takes them all at once then has to go back to the doctor. He seems happiest when he is so stoned he just passes out. He is trying to support me but we are drifting apart. I love him so much (slumped over the keyboard crying)

[joann1975]

I am a 1st time Mom...and I know I need to be here for my son....I am glad I got away from the dark side on the pills... being clean is the best...just hard to get there and stay there but IT IS DOABLE!!!!

[dominosarah]

I am also a grandma and i understand and that makes me even more determined to stay clean.  Grandparents are very important to children.  You can break this vicious cycle.  It is tough but you can do this. We all experienced a dark side on pills. Being clean is alot less scary.  Keep talking to us.

[kim715]

You're not alone,we're all right here with you.I can totally relate to what you are saying.My drug of choice was vicodin and I went round for round quitting and starting up again over and over.I went the methodone route to stop also,BIG MISTAKE.It only ended me up in a worse situation.I have been free of everything for 4 months now and life is great,never thought it would be,boy was I wrong.I finally know what it feels like to live again,I'm 'me' again.YOU CAN DO THIS and we're all here to help.Hang in there and keep posting,you're not alone.Peace.

[desperate1111]

hey katya. you can do this. get your life back. keep reading and posting here. it helps. the health pages are a huge help also. tons of support here.

[joann1975]

Just like sara said...YOU AREN'T alone...we are here...talk all you want.... it will be better when you are out of the vicious cycle of pills...they do end up bringing out a dark side you didn't know about... I know it's scary! Do you have support? A spouse?

Keep talking to us we are here for you!

JoAnn

[Katya456]

thanks. I want to give up so bad. I am a granny for crying out loud, I dont want my grandchildren to share their granny memories with my addictions. Thats how I remember my granny, she was my best friend

[dominosarah]

Just keep talking here.  You can do this.  I know it is tough but life is so much better when you are clean.  No more chasing pills.  You are not alone.  We are here for you and will give you a ton of support.                    sara