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[Addictchick_1983]

Hello.... This is my first time posting... I have been reading allot these past few weeks.... I have every day been so ready for about a month now to jump. I'm addicted to opiates. Been taking about 60-90 mg of oxy a day... For too long... Prolly a year or so steady. Maybe a lil longer. Idk... My life's a blur. I want it back... I have three kids and a husband ... They deserve more... They deserve better. I deserve better... So today is the last day I will have had anything. I'm scared of the next five days to come... Ugh. Any advice on what I can do to make the next week any more bearable......??? Tia.

[Addictchick_1983]

I know that I want that so badly. I think I'm just scared.... But I know I can do this.... I'm just afraid of being so so Ill.... But I know it won't last forever.....  And I know this is what I want!!! For myself!!!

[againnot]

Oxy was also my doc.  I was taking at least 120 mg/ day, as prescribed.  Sometimes more.  For 2 years.
I tapered, and jumped off at 30 mg/day.  It was rough, but I made it thru.
People notice how much I've changed.  I'm more focused, can think clearer.  You will too.  It's SO worth it!  
( I was on Vicodin for at least 5 years or more.  A true blue addict, I am)
You will be so happy you quit!

[VICourageous]

How are YOU doing??

If you do not get out right now, then like they said above..Keep us Updated and Lean on us!

We R here to hold your hand and cheer a cheer! Ya!

Bless

[Addictchick_1983]

Thank you.... I wrk from home... So don't really have to worry too much about missing wrk... I have a almost one year old also.... I have tried to ct before.... But only made it two weeks... The access to them was too readily available. But I'm more ready now than I have ever been.... I'm so sick of this roller coaster. I just want to feel normal.. And not have to take anything to do so.... Ugh. I want that fresh alive feeling of not being addicted and dependent on anything. Even the pills dont make me feel good any more... I think that's how I knew I was ready.... I'm just over it all together. I pray I can stick with it. Going to seek meetings as soon as I can feel good enough to get out there. I really wanna be in it to win it this time.

[NeverAgain127]

Hi Tia:

Oxycodone was the drug I took too.   I took it a LOT longer than you did...over 8 years.  

I jumped from 40 mgs a day, but there was a point where I was on 60.  It was prescribed for a severe back condition, but after a while, it didn't help with the pain...I was just taking it to take it.

The next five days will be unpleasant and rough, but unless you have some major health problem (cardiac issues, etc) it won't kill you.  Think of it as having a horrible stomach flu, and throw in anxiety for good measure.  It is doable.  

The first day for me was basically my whole body aching intensely.   My eyes watered constantly, and I sneezed a lot.  Day 2 for some reason, I woke up and felt good....and thought that it was all over.  It wasn't.   (That is the thing about detoxing...it goes up and down.)  The first 4 days were the worse.  I had diarrhea, stomach cramping, and sleep was impossible.  I basically laid in bed and watched every single funny movie we had on DVD...and I posted here a lot.    I only ate piping hot chicken broth and Gatorade.  Hot showers (I don't like hot baths, but it you do, TAKE them!) helped a lot.  

My legs were restless at night, and I felt just overall crappy...BUT.  and this is the what you need to keep in mind:  it gets better.  I'm 10 months out now, and I can tell you with 100% certainty that the nasty withdrawal stuff goes away.  

I had restless legs for a months; I still get them.  Magnesium and Potassium helps...so does wearing really tight knee socks.    Sleep?  Forget about it.  I've just resigned myself to the fact that I am not a good sleeper...but truth be told, I never was.  The oxy put me to sleep, but before I started taking it I was a chronic insomniac.  So..I'm just back to what I was before those evil pills entered my life.

This is great forum full of wonderful people.  Post every day, every HOUR if you need to...we are here to support you.

Congrats on your decision...you won't regret it...

Hugs,
-Robin

[Smalltownmom]

I feel your pain. I'm at the end of a suboxone taper and my anxiety is just as bad as running out of pills in the past. Is there any way you can get into a detox? That would be the best thing. I know how hard it is to reveal to your family (if they didn't already know). I thought mine were going to disown me. Incredibly enough they were more than willing to help. Although they don't really understand, they could tell I was just not right. I have two small children and I was so worried about leaving them for the few days going in detox but it really is a lot easier. Being at home I ran out of pills so many times and I couldn't get finding something, anything out of my head. Suffering is the worst. I suppose there are a lot of ways to do it at home with all of the advice but I know myself and I was not strong enough. I'm already panicking about coming off the last of the suboxone. It's scary. Know you're not alone. I wish you well

[dominosarah]

Welcome to the forum!  We are glad you are here.

Congrats on making that decision to get your life back.  The next week or so wont be fun but it is doable.  Our bodies need to rid itself of the toxins.  Make sure to drink plenty of fluids such as water or gatorade.  Try to stay away from caffeine for awhile.  Eat bland foods.  Get some popsicles or those pudding cups.  Foods that slide down are easier to handle!  Baths or showers will be your friend also.  Sleep isnt always in the cards either but it does come back.  Get up and move around as much as you can.  Try and stay positive and remember this part is only temporary.  You can and will get thru this.  We are open here 24 hrs a day so lean on us.  You deserve to start living again~