I am only 19 years old, and I am more scared than I have ever been in my life. I came into a methadone clinic because I was starting a habitual use of oxycontin (snorting, 80mgs/day, for about 4 months). I feel like I should have never started using methadone, and I have been daily dosing for about a month a half now, and I have been at 50 mgs for about 3 weeks. I feel horrible going cold turkey, but I am wondering if this is possible for me right now. I have realized the horror story of methadone and through changing circumstances in my life I know i no longer need drugs to be happy. At this point I just need the drug to physically survive. Its completely involuntary. I know I need help, and I want to get away from methadone as quickly as possible. With your experience, would you recommend just going cold turkey since i haven't been on for very long, or weening off immediately? Do you know of any other medicines that help, such as suboxone? I pray every night that I will not have to go through hell on this methadone, and that it is not too late for me to just put on the brakes and turn around and run. Thank your for your time, and god bless you.