Supposed to Quit Adderall on Jan1

[guineapigcorn]

My husband found out I've been snorting adderall again.  He gave me an ultimatum:  clean up or get out by Jan 1.
I'm scared to death.  I've quit cold turkey before and it is not fun.  Severe exhaustion and fatigue for several days.  The depression is horrid.  I never fully gained back all  my energy after being clean for 8 months.  So I'm scared because I am afraid I am ruined for life.  I hate lying and deceiving and all that goes along with abusing.  

Also, does anyone who has abused it gotten hand tremors and foggy-feeling?  I also have gotten paranoid like I don't want to leave the house.  I fixate on things like one chair in the kitchen that I clean for hours.  I am so miserable this has never happened on adderall until this time but I'm also afraid to stop.

This drug is pure evil.

[liscamdave]

I myself have taken adderall. I have found that combined with Oxy Contin the feeling of euphoria is doubly intoxicating. I thought this was just for me, but found out that alot of Oxy abusers seek out adderall to  mix the two. Anyway, I never became addicted to adderall. Simply because I couldn't get as many as I would have liked and I thank god to this day. I have kicked my Oxy habit, so far so good.

To answer you now, I don't know what adderall w.d is like, but I hear it is horrible. Worst then most opiates. I hear the fatigue and depression is like no other. I would go to your dr and wean to as little as you can for a while. 1-1 is too close. Your husband needs to understand how hard it is to kick any addiction. As long as you are weaning with your drs orders and help, your husband should understand its a process. Ultimatims don't always work. And in your case, you need to want to stop for you, as Sarah said. You may stop for him, but eventually you will go back for you. So just be careful and do what is the best for you right now. As I said, if you are making the attempt to wean and quit, your hubby should be helpful and maybe he can also learn from this process. Good luck, we are all behind you.

[LivingPresent]

Addiction can bring up a tremendous feeling of isolation. Like no one else has ever had my problems, or at least not the extent that I have it. And the idea that what worked for others won't work for me because I'm different. It's that terminal uniqueness they talk about. You haven't screwed up your system forever, that's just fear driving your thoughts. You can do this, so many before you have been in your situation and managed to overcome. You need help, support, and perhaps joining a 12 step program. A rehab would be excellent if you can get into one, but that doesn't mean you can't recover without one.

I had pretty bad tremors from abusing amphetamines. And my head always seemed to be foggy, like you said, but at the same time I could concentrate on one task very well. I remember staying up many nights "fixing" things, things that weren't even broken. Hyper focusing on things around the house. Plumbing and electrical repairs. Building furniture. It all seemed so necessary, but you should see the crappy plumbing and wiring in my house now! lol.

[dominosarah]

You need to involve your doctor with this.  You need to taper down with this and if you get everyone on board with your recovery it will be easier.  Time to get real honest with yourself here.  You have to want to get clean for you, not just becuz your husband has given you an ultimatum.             sara