tomorrow

[memedown]

So I am an addict. My family has been under the impression that the doctor is still prescribing my hydrocodon but that hasn't been true for awhile. I also have make pothitic attempts to convince myself and others that I don't have a problem because of the amount I use and the fact that i do suffer in pain and nothing else seemed to help.. This is not my first time getting off the drug but I'm sure this will be worse than before seeing how I have using for years and of course the dose has went up.. I called today and made an appointment with my doctor and have been in a panic just thinking about trekking her what I have really been doing. I have cried off and on just thinking of the with draws I'm about to go through. Like I said I've done this before and went back to it. Think I'm going to try the Thomas recipe and taper off them. Stated tapering off two days ago and already got the funky feelings especially my poor legs.... :( I am terrified........

[memedown]

Thank you all so much. I will be looking for more support. My company offers rehab but I just can't make myself let them in on what's going on. They try to be private but word always gets around. We have random drug test so I'm always worried my scrip is to out of date to get by just one more time. I feel like I live in a fish bowl. But the count down is on just a few more short hours before my doctors appointment and we'll see how brave I can be. Thank you again

[VICourageous]

Good for YOU! Just remember that we can not do this alone..Support is a must and I would hope that you get some out side support from other Addicts in Recovery as well. You know since this is not your first time that it does take Time & Patience for the Brain & Body to adjust back after the removal of these Stims.
I have to agree with OpenMind24hours..This Addiction can go way deep down for some and for many different reason why we use..This is where the work really begins..Staying clean..I wish you the best and I sure pray you get way more support this time around. Just take it min by min and then you can take bigger steps later on down the road.
Bless
Bless

[Brokenchains]

You can do it!! I'm on my 20th day from cutting Norco cold turkey. I feel great!!! I used Norco for approx 5 yrs and had the same feelings as you. I would justify the use because I have a legitimate injury with pain. I am so glad I stopped. It made me someone I'm not. Don't be scared, be excited to start your journey to a clean life. You got this!!

[memedown]

I've cut off must of my suppliers and the ones left respect me enough not to push the subject of me hooking up. My wonderful man is being supportive and the one person I'm sharing this with it side of my doctor and being on here. Poor guy is fixing to be in for a heck of a ride I'm afraid. The mental down falls scare me most. I was clean for years and slowly started back then got ill and back to the rest race of keeping myself in supply from the doctor and side dealers.  Doctor stopped them in December so I been going for broke paying street cost. Every time I have tried to stop I end up crying and popping one in my mouth thinking there is no way I can get clean. The difference this time is I want to get clean for me not someone else.

[OpenMind24hours]

Addiction isn't a social deficiency it's a serious disease. Our using is only a symptom. The disease has many more layers to it. There is no shame in being an addict providing you're taking positive steps to do something about it. What you're about to do is as positive as it gets. Congratulations on this willingness you have to finally put this all behind you. I'm willing to bet that Your doctor will help you all she/he can. You're going to feel really relieved when you confide all of this.