TRAM HELP. WITHDRAWAL HELP

[chaddavis333]

I have a few post on here, so please forgive me that I keep writing, but I have no other outlet. I am begging all who read this to please give me a response. Let me tell you my story. 8 months ago I got injured at work. My doc gave me vicodin. I told him after 2 months and a lenghty hospital stay, that I felt like I was getting addicted to them. He switched me to tramadol 6 a day. This made me feel great and I thought the more the better. Once I found I could buy them online, it was even better. I ordered and ordered and before I knew it, I was taking 18-20 a day for the last 3 weeks before it all came crashing down. I told my wife everything and my pastor too. He thought I should go and get checked in at a Detox center. All that was last Sunday, Nov. 14th. On that day I took 13. They told me I could not detox, but just go home and do it there, becuase since it was not a narcotic, I would be uncomfortable but wouldn't die. Monday, the next day, I took 8 with a lot of fatigue and anxiety. Tuesday I did 6 with even more anxiety but I could not sleep. Today, I took 2 at 6:30 am and was anxious all day. I thought I would quit today, but by 3:30 on the same day I could not sit still and I took 2 more. I felt a little more relaxed and took a 8-10 minute nap. Now here I am crying, which has been non stop, begging someone for help. I have taken Lexapro for a while now, so I thought coming off this would not be bad. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!! I have 2 small children and besides my injury I am a normal 36 year old male. I am very much involved in my church. I think God because I did not die from taking so many. I did call my doc and he made me transfer all my stuff over to him from my detox visit, and has not yet called me back?? Will someone please tell me what to do here? When will I feel normal again. Should I just quit and suffer non stop for a few days??  What do I do. Please everyone Respond. I can't take this.

update  my doctor told me today that i am done. i must quit cold turkey. i can not have anymore. please tell me how to quit this without the anxiety!!
I also was curious that since I was going into this taking an antidepresant. will my withdrawals be as long and as bad? ..

[GeorgiaGirl1022]

Hey Chad   What day r u on? I'm on day 5 from hydrostatic and I'm feeling a little better today. Yes the mornings and middle of the night have been rough for me too. Woke up at 6 and thought I was going to freak out! Sweaty and jyst feeling like I was having a terrible panic attack!  But as the morning has worn on im feeling like that has lifted. I got up and dusted and sat outside. Talked on the phone to distract myself. That really helped too. Good luck today! I feel sure by thanksgiving we both should be peachy

[chaddavis333]

Duluthguy, you are a God send. Thank you so much for the encouragment. The only remaining symptoms is a touch of the anxiety in the morning. So, instead of sit here and worry about it, I went out and cleaned my garage.  I don't even have a temptation for the pills. The only thing that kinda ***** is my stomach is hurts still and my back has a pinch in it. However, I would not trade them back for the anxiety. Anything is better than the hell last week. Man, on day two I was on the floor in my kitchen on my face begging God to take me away. I just couldn't take it anymore. I wish I could go back and tell that  guy to be strong.

[duluthguy]

That is awesome, I'm so glad you are finally feeling better!! I knew you would get there!! Congrats, I felt guilty when I was feeling so good and you were so down and out, I hope it continues!! stay strong and god bless!!

[chaddavis333]

Well, here I am at the start of day 5. The day when things are supposed to get better. Praise God , they already have. I had a decent night's sleep about 6 hours, without sleep aids. I woke up this morning with a touch of anxiety about 35% or enough to kinda of tell. I had the anxious feeling with a touch of the arm and chest zaps, but nothing like before. Nights are defiently the best. I hope today gets better. I don't see going backwards. Thank You Savior.

[chaddavis333]

Another thing, I know that this is not the smartest, but my email is chaddavis333@hotmail. com if anyone that is suffering wants to correspond back and forth. Right now I am at about 80% but I can tell you what to expect and maybe do.  Avisg, Duluthguy, throwinthetowel,  gnarly, and ladylisa, THANK YOU FOR THE HELP THROUGH THIS HELL OF A JOURNEY.  I will never forget your words as I struggled through this hell. Thanks to everyone else who commented, but most of all THANK YOU MY SAVIOR. You have brought back one of Your lost sheep, broke him for your purpose, and put him back together to do Your will. God really saved my life here. Glory to Him.  In order for God to mold you to His Purpose, He must first brake the old mold and start a new.

[chaddavis333]

WOW!!! What a difference a few hours and The Almighty God makes. I feel incredible. I went to church tonight with no problems, ate like a fat king, and played catch in the living room with my 2 year old son. The reason I am saying this is becuase I know in the morning I will have those "whispers" of anxiety. A week ago at this time right now, I was setting in the emergency room waiting to go into to detox. I wish I could go back and tell that guy that everyday for a while is gonna suck, but you will come through on the end other end wonderfully. Please here me people: PRAYER AND FAITH WORK WHEN YOU ARE ON THAT 2ND AND 3RD DAY OF WITHDRAWAL. PLEASE HANG IN THERE. At least now, I know for sure I, Chad Davis, am an addict. NOT an abuser, but someone with an addictive personality. I hope that if you are reading this right now and going through withdrawals, please don't give in. In less 5 days God has delivered me from the demons of addiction and withdrawals. Flush your pills, unless you need them for a real reason, and give everything over to Him. Do it in true faith, and I promise He will deliver you.