TRAM HELP. WITHDRAWAL HELP

[chaddavis333]

I have a few post on here, so please forgive me that I keep writing, but I have no other outlet. I am begging all who read this to please give me a response. Let me tell you my story. 8 months ago I got injured at work. My doc gave me vicodin. I told him after 2 months and a lenghty hospital stay, that I felt like I was getting addicted to them. He switched me to tramadol 6 a day. This made me feel great and I thought the more the better. Once I found I could buy them online, it was even better. I ordered and ordered and before I knew it, I was taking 18-20 a day for the last 3 weeks before it all came crashing down. I told my wife everything and my pastor too. He thought I should go and get checked in at a Detox center. All that was last Sunday, Nov. 14th. On that day I took 13. They told me I could not detox, but just go home and do it there, becuase since it was not a narcotic, I would be uncomfortable but wouldn't die. Monday, the next day, I took 8 with a lot of fatigue and anxiety. Tuesday I did 6 with even more anxiety but I could not sleep. Today, I took 2 at 6:30 am and was anxious all day. I thought I would quit today, but by 3:30 on the same day I could not sit still and I took 2 more. I felt a little more relaxed and took a 8-10 minute nap. Now here I am crying, which has been non stop, begging someone for help. I have taken Lexapro for a while now, so I thought coming off this would not be bad. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!! I have 2 small children and besides my injury I am a normal 36 year old male. I am very much involved in my church. I think God because I did not die from taking so many. I did call my doc and he made me transfer all my stuff over to him from my detox visit, and has not yet called me back?? Will someone please tell me what to do here? When will I feel normal again. Should I just quit and suffer non stop for a few days??  What do I do. Please everyone Respond. I can't take this.

update  my doctor told me today that i am done. i must quit cold turkey. i can not have anymore. please tell me how to quit this without the anxiety!!
I also was curious that since I was going into this taking an antidepresant. will my withdrawals be as long and as bad? ..

[avisg]

Mornings are the best then things can go up and down .How much are you sleeping .Are you exercising .stay positive things will get better ....
Avis

[duluthguy]

I agree with throwindatowl, it does come back with some minor waves, they aren't too bad at all... Just irritating, but your mind is much more clear so its easier to deal with- I do have bad moments, just a 5 second wave passes over me and then it is gone, a hot sweat here or there, a little weak kneed wave... all in all mild compared to them days of anguish... stay strong, it's so worth it!!

[throwindatowl]

dude wow. reading through what youve been going through I have to say, IM IMPRESSED! Stick to your guns man. Everything thats happening is normal. On the last couple days the wds seem to come in waves. You feel fine then bam, not fine. They dont last that long though. Im a day 6 of oxys and feel great. This morning I was sitting outside and bam, I felt weird. Clammy skin. It passed in about 5 mins. Your doing  great for mid day through day 3. Yes, you will notice a huge difference on day 5. Will you feel normal or perfect no. Will you feel alot better than you do today. Yes. Just keep it up and tell your wife not to yell at cha. HAHA. doubt that will happen.lol. Gotta havve a sense of humor during these times man. Im glad mine is comming back. I missed it.

[duluthguy]

I can only say how it's been for me, and today is my up day so far!! A few little tremors but nothing really- a little bit weak, but i'm helping my mom move some stuff!! I can't believe how good I feel, I'm just want to save strength for them days ahead where I get tempted...

[chaddavis333]

my corner seems tto have taken a u turn . i felt great this morning, but after my wife yelled at me, things started going backwards again. is this normal? also, it is not all the way through day 3, did you say that by 5 i should notice a big differnece? Remeber i was taking 20 a day for about a month and a half. then 13,Sunday, 8Monday, 6 Tuesday, and then 0 on weds.?

[duluthguy]

Hey that is so so awesome!! I'm so happy u turned that corner!! I am at about 95% now, mind is clear and I feel great!!  God bless!!