TRAM HELP. WITHDRAWAL HELP

[chaddavis333]

I have a few post on here, so please forgive me that I keep writing, but I have no other outlet. I am begging all who read this to please give me a response. Let me tell you my story. 8 months ago I got injured at work. My doc gave me vicodin. I told him after 2 months and a lenghty hospital stay, that I felt like I was getting addicted to them. He switched me to tramadol 6 a day. This made me feel great and I thought the more the better. Once I found I could buy them online, it was even better. I ordered and ordered and before I knew it, I was taking 18-20 a day for the last 3 weeks before it all came crashing down. I told my wife everything and my pastor too. He thought I should go and get checked in at a Detox center. All that was last Sunday, Nov. 14th. On that day I took 13. They told me I could not detox, but just go home and do it there, becuase since it was not a narcotic, I would be uncomfortable but wouldn't die. Monday, the next day, I took 8 with a lot of fatigue and anxiety. Tuesday I did 6 with even more anxiety but I could not sleep. Today, I took 2 at 6:30 am and was anxious all day. I thought I would quit today, but by 3:30 on the same day I could not sit still and I took 2 more. I felt a little more relaxed and took a 8-10 minute nap. Now here I am crying, which has been non stop, begging someone for help. I have taken Lexapro for a while now, so I thought coming off this would not be bad. SOMEONE PLEASE HELP ME!! I have 2 small children and besides my injury I am a normal 36 year old male. I am very much involved in my church. I think God because I did not die from taking so many. I did call my doc and he made me transfer all my stuff over to him from my detox visit, and has not yet called me back?? Will someone please tell me what to do here? When will I feel normal again. Should I just quit and suffer non stop for a few days??  What do I do. Please everyone Respond. I can't take this.

update  my doctor told me today that i am done. i must quit cold turkey. i can not have anymore. please tell me how to quit this without the anxiety!!
I also was curious that since I was going into this taking an antidepresant. will my withdrawals be as long and as bad? ..

[duluthguy]

You will overwhelm yourself thinking of day 3 and day 4... For me on Day 3 I lost alot of worst unbearable symptoms... It might be different and longer for you, but that doesn't matter... Stay focused short term, get thru today, see what tomorrow brings... It will be over much sooner than you think, been there and done it twice. Keep fighting the good fight, my friend, just keep staying strong, post early and often on here! We are all feeling your pain, praying you will get better soon- Take care and god bless

[avisg]

for me days 2 and 3 were the worst and u can get threw it you HAVE to stay postive .Remember this is a very short part of a very long life you CAN do it !!!!

[chaddavis333]

so what is day 3 and 4 like? i can't take 2 more days of this. please help me!!

[duluthguy]

I have no idea if the Lexapro will help or not, I hope it does- I'm truly sorry to hear that you are suffering so bad... I certainly would hope that your wife would understand if you just cannot make it to the wedding... You made some bad choices once you were addicted, but that was the addict making them choices, not the true you... The time has come to get clean, and tough as it is, our loved ones have to suffer with us.. I think that is the hardest part for me but its just the way it is... Hopefully they will forgive you, they will be so happy when you are back to normal... The goal is to live pill free, so come what may, it's time to get there... Stay strong, You are making big progress now...

[avisg]

I don't think it will make a difference .For the most part day 5 is right about the turning point .Next week discuss with your doctor perhaps changing your lexapro dose temporary just until you can get your serotonin levels back to normal .You dont want to do it any sooner because you were taking so much tramadol your levels were sky high .That is dangerous so give it a week from when you stopped all tram then discuss it with him.Do NOT do it on your own make sure u consult him .
I would have your wife tell them you  have the flu and did not feel it would be a good idea to expose everyone at the wedding to it .That is way to much for you right now .

[chaddavis333]

I also wanted to ask if this would matter: I only had 4 the day before I quit. Will this make my wd faster?