Day3

[conhall]

Hard night the last few days and nights have been blended I did fall asleep last night for almost 2 hours. I pretty much stayed in bathtub last night . I feel very weak today I am going to try and eat.  Thanks everyone for support I am on day 3 and just when I thought I couldnt take much more i keep pushing through i am not going back! I Have never cried so much in my life

[conhall]

Your so right LeaAnn807 tomorrow will be better  and Hoping not to kill anyone ;-) how are you doing ? thanks for support I appreciate it

[conhall]

Congrats on day 16 Mary! You know exactly what i am talking about the sleep issues are hard But Last night i slept 2 hours was amazing and if i dont sleep tonight Its okay i have movies and i will read or do whatever i can Keep up the good work Thx for suppport :)

[conhall]

your right Kyle I can squint and close one eye and picture bright Light! i am doing it I am going to do this Tomorrow is day 4 and posting to others is helpful and giving support to anyone I can is great! Its the least i can do everyone has listened to my madness and I am sure I will post more things that I will read later and think omg how embarrassing  I have definatley having a few moments of clarity I think That lil hissy fit I had earlier was just the Poison coming out! Get out poisin get the heck outta here! and dont let the door hit you in the a$$

[conhall]

Thx Vicki No he doesnt know and I have made up my mind I wont tell him its been 3 yrs weve been together and he doesnt know at this time  its just not going to happen maybe later down the road but right now my mind frame is Not going to tell him. Our relationship is strong but thats just one of those things I cant say to him. he rubbed my back last night because i have chronic back aches and knee problems and I started crying he said baby dont cry I know u r hurting but I will just keep rubbing and he did.
  I kept some food down and actually slept for almost an hour wow I can really say I feel better. I apologized to him and he also said sorry and asked if I wanted to go to dinner I should of made myself but i didnt but he took kids and said he would bring me home something. Hes good guy and i know i sounded like a crazy person earlier sorry for that and thanks for help and Vicki thanks for PM u have no idea how much it helped I just needed to talk and God bless u for being there. <3

[LeaAnn807]

I'm so proud of you!  This is a tough day, but you are almost done with it.  Tomorrow will be some better and the next day will be MUCH better, so just hang in there, and try not to kill anyone! : )

[kyle505]

You posted over 10 hours ago about your being on day 3...I think if you squint your eyes you'll be able to just make out day 4 waiting to pop up.
You are amazing. You're spilling your guts about your detox while offering others support. Excellent.  Now try to eat something. I hear the chocolate Ensure is to die for!

[vicki595]

You know what? When we don't get enough sleep and especially when we don't eat, the machine starts breaking down.

You needed to eat and he's a good boy. Listen, our partners can be aggravating to us! Just ask me!  LOL

Does your BF know what's going on? If not, you need to tell him...

[mary577]

It's especially hard when having kids to look after or explain to, but you're doing good.   You will get through it.   I didn't sleep for two nights straight...I think it was the 3rd and 4th night, but I was surprised that although I was tired.....I was sort of able to function.   Normally, I can't miss much sleep at all and I am so groggy.   It does get better.   I had no energy to speak of for about ten days, and I feel a little better every day....day 16 now.   You are a lot younger than I am, and you will probably bounce back quicker.

[conhall]

Ok I think I am calm I Took long bath and My son made me a cup o noodles and It actually stayed down . Was Like I was eating a porterhouse steak I have never tasted anything so good. I Made it through another hour and I feel the food has warmed my belly. Thank you Thank you I will make it through this. I am so strong! I am fierce and can do this. I can see the flicker the light came back. Its so close

[harmsnogood]

You really need to try and relax,easier said than done whilst going through this I know.Your not going mad nor are you a bad person.This is just the emotional side of the withdrawl and is completely normal.I felt just like you with everybody around me.Its a good idea to get out for a walk,go into another room lie down,baths anything to try to relax a bit.I promise you it will pass and soon you will be a lot better.Rant as much on here but importantly you are doing this for you and for your family and life is so much better for everyone after this.Keep strong,
Harms

[Sonrissa]

Cmon Conhall! Relax! Deep breaths! This is completely normal! Read my previous reply to you! We've all been through this! It will pass! Taking a walk is good! Ranting here is fine! Just continue to stay strong! Calm yourself down! Maybe it's time to take a Relaxing bath? You will feel better a bit later! Try to take a nap or just lie down! Do whatever it takes to get through this! Keep fighting! It will be over soon!

[conhall]

just a lil advice when someone tells you to leave them alone and they have that look in there eye which I know is in mine do as told leave them alone.
I am not excusing my actions but I said several times in the nicest way please not now leave me alone Please leave me alone Okay lets see If I can say this any better Leave me The hell alone! Omg why am I freaking out so bad. Please someone post something to me I feel like I am losing it! I want to look back on this in a week and just be ok Please god help me

[conhall]

My son knocked at my  door and is crying why couldnt my boyfriend just leave me alone My kids were fine I was able to just make them think I had flu but after this last yelling fit at my BF My son is crying he is 17 and trying to tell me he doesnt know whats wrong but he thinks he should call his dad  to come help me. I told him no i just am tired from being sick and Thats it I am ok son I am ok just go take care of sister I am going to lay down Moms okay sorry I scarred u both. Seeing My son cry was so hard i really am a mess Trying to breath just writing Breath ing and so mad why did I let him get to me. I have come so far . I can do this . And if he leaves because of my outburst then I cant worry about it I have to get through this day before i can do anything else. My Kids are my life and in order for me to have my life I have to get these out of my system Its Like poison Burning my skin from the inside out. Where that light I saw this morning Its not even there anymore am I Losing it?

[conhall]

I am ranting I Know But this is so hard! i cant deal with outside issues right now I am barely barely holding on i feel like i am going to collapse from anxiety and anger .  In his defense he has no idea what I am going through and i dont have it in me at this moment to talk about it all! to him. I cant worry about him i am doing all i can do to just get through the next hour

[conhall]

I am feeling so overwhelmed went for walk I could just scream In fact I wish I could I am trying so hard. I dont want to deal with household stuff on top of my WD i have nothing left to give today! My Boyfriend is really just getting on my nerves ! i finally yelled at him and said mean things he then tryies to talk more whats the matter with you lets talk OMG I need to get out of here Even my kids are smarter than him they have been very self suffient last 3 days. I Finally told him what part of leave me alone doesnt get through to u! if i wanted to talk about it i would i was screaming all this like a crazy person Do u know the man still tried to talk to me! I came in my room shut door and dont him To please for the very last time leave me alone this is me telling u I dont want to talk I just need you to stop!

[harmsnogood]

Yes these feelings are very normal during detox.I couldn't stand anybody else talking about anything at all.I felt like screaming at them all to shut up and leave me alone.These feelings again as sonrissa said will pass.Please stay strong,getting yourself better is the most important thing right now,keep fighting your so close to feeling better.Take care
Harms

[Sonrissa]

What you are feeling is so very normal when you are Detoxing! I remember when I was on day 3-4, I was ready to kill my roommate! She also had no idea what I was going through! She just kept talking and talking! I wanted to scream, shut up!! Leave me alone!! I really understand! It will pass! I know it's hard to believe that sometimes. Just distract yourself. You are doing very well as I keep saying! It will be your attitude that gets you through this! Deep breaths! Stay strong!! Pray for patience! Big hugs to you!!

[conhall]

its so hard  I feel a little insane like I have really lost it ut the more I post the more time goes By i dont even know if i make sense Thanks Sonrissa <3

[conhall]

OMG My skin is feeling like I Just want to crawl out of it having moments of insanity then clarity! My Boyfriend is really getting on my last nerve. I feel bad because he has no idea But I could really just slap him Right now quit talking to me leave me alone Save urself! Ok I Know that sounds mean But I cant handle anyone but me right now at this moment and Maybe I am bad person But I am trying so hard and the more he tries to talk or touch me the more I want to take a handfull of pills!

[harmsnogood]

Hi,I would just like to say well done on day 3.Day 3 is typically the worst for many and your fighting through it.You are so close to feeling so much better and with your positive attitude and determination you wil do this.Keep the fluids up and eat a little if you can.Again,congrats it is so much better clean.
Harms

[10356]

Hello again Conhall :) Congrats on day 3 !! Whooo Hoo !! You are in the worst part now, day 3 is rough !! But the attitude you have is serving you well Keep pushing forward you are so close to Freedom !! Try to eat keep pushing the fluids I was glad to read you got 2 hours sleep That should help you push thru today.. You are doing Great !! lesa

[Sonrissa]

Hi Conhall! You are doing amazing! You are getting through this!! You are going to start feeling better soon! You know what is amazing? While you are going through this, you are reaching out and helping other people!! Keep you great and positive attitude! You arengonna make this!!

[conhall]

Thank you I feel so weak with no energy i havent been able to keep anything down Hoping today I can . I made it through the night watched sun come up and I am just pushing through .  How have you been ?  Thank you and keep being strong yourself Congrats on day 8!!!!!!

[1yraddict]

you will be surprised after day 3 how quickly things start to clear up.  Day 4 for me was still alittle rough but day 5 was MUCH better.  You are past the half way point so dont giver up!  I am on day 8 and it seems like 9 days ago was a eyar ago.  Totally different person.  I dont even recognize who that was.

Keep pushing, hydrate, amino protein shakes, vitamins....you can do this.