Walking the plank, of shame...

[throwindatowl]

Ok. Long story short. I have 4 days clean today. I had over 30. I am ashamed. Its not my first time falling down. I did fall for a day or two but I got up. I got up and that says something. If your in the first few days of wd try and stay positive and things will get better in afew days. Ill take it one day at a time and you do the same. I know I have alot of hard work to do. I have not been doing what I need to. Sometimes I dont wanna quit, or maybe I just wanna use. Is it the same?

[dominosarah]

Nicely said Laurel~~~~

[ImDONENoMore]

I love that laurel453 - that thinking of "i will not use" because of... (fill in the blank)..because it only makes things worse.  Very powerful.  I'm going to share your mindset with others.  Thank you!

[laurel453]

everything can be a excuse for using or just the opposite, a motivation for staying clean, throwin.... because i feel alone, i will not use, because i am divorced, i will not use, because i feel sad, i will not use  ( to make things worse for me )..... i don't know but the worse i feel, the bigger my determination for not using , this is not an option.... change the direction and you will reach somewhere else... work on yourself , all the best !! :)

[Punkinhead75]

"I've been pretty down in the dumps due to a divorce and a job situation." -throwindatowl

  "When I am disturbed, it is because I find some person, place, thing. or situation- some fact of my life- unacceptable to me, and I can find no serenity until I accept that person, place thing, or situation as being exactly the way it is supposed to be at this moment."--Big Book of AA

Learning to understand that when I am upset, angry, depressed etc the problem is me.  It is not because of other people or situations.  Although this didn't provide me with any instant relief, it did help me start working in the right direction.  Once I got pointed in the right direction I was able to make progress in my recovery.  When I make progress in my recovery the obsession to use diminishes.  Glad to hear you are back.  Keep coming and keep sharing.  Thanks!!!

[ang_811]

i agree

[dominosarah]

You have not told me one excuse yet that justifies your using.   I hope you really do get some recovery care this time cuz that time bomb is ticking away~~~sara