It is eaaaaarly morning right now. I will lay back down. But Just wanted to say,.....I believe Im starting to feel better. SSSSSShhh, Im still scared to say it to loud. (smiles) But it suuure is an AMAZING feeling! Those 11 days felt like 11 YEARS! Im serious! But its TRUE,....to everyone struggling, seems like you cant see it getting better.......THE DEVIL IS A LIAR!! I want, and NEED you to know, I thought I was in the lowest, and worst shape mentally that anyone on here, I didnt think anyone truly understood how dark it was for me.....Honest to God! I seriously thought I was going to have to check myself into the psych ward, or something close to it. I couldnt take it, but didnt know what to do at the same time.
I must tell you, All I could do was keep praying, and fighting into the blind, and believing that the Lord would bring me outta this thang, somehow, someway. It was so bad for me that, I swear......Im still scared to keep speaking on it too much, Im scared the good feeling might leave or something. (smiles) So SSSSSShhhh, I dont wanna say it too loud, but I am feeling better!, So you just got to keep believing, praying, and fighting, you will DEFINITELY rise up, and out of the **** that these pills have put you in. I understand that it seems Totally hopeless right now, I was just right there in them shoes...I promise. I just wanted to die. But today.....11 days later, I do feel better, and I thought I would never feel this way again. God is good. Well, thats enough for now, Im hopeing that this feeling will stay with me, and I keep doing what Im suppose to do, and not using, that it will only get better.....and better.....and better.......and on, and on, and on. SSSSSShhhh dont say it so loud. God Bless you all. Today is a new day, hang in there, keep fighting, you are digging your wayoutta that dark hole, into the light!!! Ill post later today.